Doraemon

HAHA,tml is the last day of debrief,finally,nightmare is gonna over.....but my results is not tat fantastic..should i work harder nxt time???haha,today our family go eat jumbo,i m damn satisfied,i eat 1 big black pepper crab,wohooooo,ytd i went out wif ze and i bought a earring and a skinny jeans...why guy's jeans so ex,its unfair lor..haha nvm...i m looking forward to 2cr and 3it chalet,wahahahah

ENG:62
chem:81
phy:82
chi:64.5
bio:57
emaths:92
amaths:93
combine human:55

my bio so sux sia...miss lam de ppr i realli cant handle,i will do well next time!!!

yeah!we had won 3DL,they were just idiot lah,after losing to us,they still went to complain tat the referees were biased towards us,haha,i suggested tat they should just admit the facts,can???the score is 8-5,shawn is damn fuking rough...and 3LY lost to 3CR,i damn sad can???haiz,nvm,tml we vs 3CR,i will take revenge,haha STUPID MOLE,u wuill die......wahahahahahahahhaahaha,ze arh,cheer lah, show mi ur teeth!!

today is a boring day....everything seems to be boring.and i dun even feel like playing ball..haha,i want to complete all my maths assignment..it is not my style to owe teacher hw, so i use 1 hr lunch break to clear all of them..wa,it makes mi feel more boring..my life is like so dull.ytd,sth happened to joy..and she looks very devastated today...aiya,i dunnoe her lah.To me,tat is wad i am expecting,but i think she is too upset and she cannot calm down...nvm,every1 learns through mistakes and problems.maybe she will be more matured after this..si nai ma,i will keep my promise.i will console her,so u must go bak to e idiot wif the idiot's smile hor....now i comes to 2nd thing..nat's problem..jason and joanne they are like so lame and childish...although at first is nat's faults ,but they keep scolding her to show their concern to their fren,they are so childish...

"if onli when they scolding nat can show their concern to their fren,i just wanna tell them tat they are lousy ,coz it onli shows their childish."

JOY SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun think about all the things and get on with ur life..
everything will be over soon, so try to tahan for awhile..MUST BE CHEERFUL AND HAPPY AGAIN..
BE THE LAMO JOY LIKE LAST TIME


NAI mA,go bak to idiot wif idiot smiles,
NAI mA,go bak to idiot wif idiot smiles,
NAI mA,go bak to idiot wif idiot smiles.
3 times,u noe wad i mean

haha,its a morning postttttt...this week is like super slack but den i dun realli want to write anythingggg....this week happened a lot of things as there are 2 people's birthdays....1 of them was damn import yet i din do anything.the other 1 is like damn unimport yet i did sth..haha,self-contradict right...because it was an import birthday,so i din do anything,as wad i told yd,i was not tat stupid to make same mistake twice..she was diff,she was unique,so i din wanna give her any burden.hahahaha,there was a guy giving her presents,but he was damn funny,he put anonymous,haha,so humji,i would nv do tat,but most ppl thought tat was mi,m i tat coward?haha,if i realli gave, i would definitely put my own name.....thurs was michelle birthday party,she invited 50 ppl yet onli 2cr ppl and a few basketballers and 1 3cr person,wad happen to the other good fren?haha,i dunnoe....luckily there were onli 2cr ppl,and we had so much fun,even if last time we were rival or enemy,but at least we had been clzmates for 2yrs,we noe each other thus,we can do anything and tat wun make ppl angry..and MY FIRST KISS IS TO WS,WTFFFFFFF,luckily onli cheek,but michelle kiss ws cheek also,haha,he has such a fruitful day...luckily nv kiss mi,i will be SIMPLY STUNNING,haha,we also take a lot of photoes,but they are not wif mi....so sry lorrrr....my BESTFRIEND is becoming emo and emo emoemo,just ask her a question oso dun wanna ans,so siao deeeee

wa, got headache, dunno why suddenly got headache one..very pain..shit lah..
next week is my cousin's wedding registration day..wah very excited, she getting married already..so i dont need go cross country tt day..very gd.
nxt friday also going kbox with my frens..v long nv go already..mus sing alot, although my singing sux
yst tok to mr so, i realise he's like my father..very nice to tok to..i sit there and tok to him for very very long, tell him wad i hate bout e school rules and bout studies..he really sound like my father lah..i tink he's the best teacher lah..so nice..

volleyball interclass on friday and we won the girls n boys' match. FINAL! OVERALL CHAMPION!! cool arh! dl ppl keep jeering there, in the end they also lose to us..hahaha serve them right..3it rocks!
today went library to teach yt n yb physics..not bad not bad, after tt still go walk awhile..bought michelle's bday present..i think she will love it
nth much today, tmr think of ponning school coz is cca day..haha

ytd is a rainy day but i love it.i went to orchard wif ze becoz my cousin's wedding was coming but i didn't haf any "formal" clothes,so she accompanied mi to go buy.but b4 tat,i went to joy house to find ze as she got tuition.then joy's mum asked mi went up and eat.wapiang...all seafood and meats,but ok lah,the food is quite delicious.and joy's mum and ah ma were so lame tat i cant ta han sia.after tat we went to orchard.at first we go FAR EAST,but there was nothing so we went to heren after tat.i bought a jacket and a skinny pant at MY 77th street...quite nice.anw,tat stupid dumb decent nai ma didnt want to eat yet she was like super hungry,stupid hor-.-..when we were taking bus home,we saw 2 lesbians sitting in front of us and they were like kissing and kissing...haha,so hot right,but still veri disgustinggg,both of us cant ta han..k lah,tat all

today is a tiring day....we play volleyball vs EP/FG,although our clz wins,but i feel depressed coz i m out of form today...haizzzzz,sianzzz,i must try harder nxt time...or else so pai seh..netball interclz is another thing screw mi up...there are onli 10 ppl can play,and 2 guys can play on court,so we intend to haf 3 guys which is mi ,jj and kq,den kok wei sae he wan CCA pts,but dunwan play.but he occupies 1 slot.gal nid 5 ppl on court ,and yet they onli got 1 sub..since nat wants to play,i say i quit,let nat play,but den it ends up wif more and more probs,haiz,m i doing wrong thing or wad sht,i sarcrifice my oppotunity to play(cca pt oso) ,but den it seems i cre8 mroe troubles...haizzzzz......Nai ma,cheer hor...haha..and joy dun so angry or wad over e stupid matter..weisiang,u got talent for VB de,so jia you lor

today is an super unlucky day...i m like so angry yet i dunnoe wad i m angry about...sry to all my dear frens..especially joy who was scared by mi..i dont mean it...i "bang" e table in front of her,i have told her my temper sux but she udn believe,maybe now she will believe...i think it through again...is it realli tat diff to give up?erm,seriously i dunnoe...is the feeling getting weaker and weaker?erm,i oso dunnoe...its like everything i oso dunnoe..i have tried so hard to avoid any misunderstanding yet some misunderstand happened...actualli its nth big deal but maybe my anger has been piled up..i must come bak to e same question again.."shd i give up?"..maybe e nicole i like is just my imagination.."she" is not exist..but den,since i like her,i will try to accept her everything...however,i m just an ordinary person and i haf bad temper..i cnat promise i will nv angry as i always get angry wif my cousin...joy sae tat i shd look for sum1 tat suits mi?haha,i m quite suprised oso as i m not sad..realli seriosuly..i dun feel my sadness but my anger..haha,maybe i m not a good bf and i haf a lousy character,but i will try to change if there is a chance...haha,life is just like tat...maybe today is unlucky day but tml will be a lucky day or fruitful day????Lets see...lastly,sry arh,joy and ze,ur and she quarrel again becoz of mi,although is indirectly..i still feel ..erm,i dun any words to describe my feeling..onli word is just sry..summore,weak ze must take care lah...later bb $$ too little..ha

today i went to watch transformer wif joy and ze,the movie is super nice...haha,i think is damn funny lah..ze got a headache ..haiz,she soooo weak,hope she can cure fast?lolllll,if she read this,i m gonna diiiiiieeeeee....haha....

ytd i went to watch hu pan liu heng wif jj,yd,kok,kq and jiahe...b4 that,jj,yd ,kok and I got meet zhu jun and casey and eat MAC...the dramas are quite funny..and den we go play lan after the drama..I am quite FUK UP wif sum1..but i dun feel like mention the suck cock name..did i hate u?did i FUK U?stupid ass,dun u think u look like gorilla..go eat shit lah..ass hole..like king kong like tat..FUK...

after this,i think some of my questions are solved.maybe u are the ass stab mi,just maybe,but wif HIGHER chance..maybe i will try to get along wif u ..but i m tired of this,everytime,each time,when there are misunderstandings between mi and sum1,its always i go apologisse or do wadeva(sumtimes are not).However, i din do anything wrong...just tat there is sum asses go anyhow anyhow..cant u stand on e person's position?u think u are popular or wad.i tell u ,my ans wil be "NO"..fuk,realli angry..but still i will see tat person quite often and maybe i just act normally..haiz..I hate all of these childish acts.. "I hate u,i dun hate u...so lame"

cute right? look like me when i was young..so many layers of fats

本年度最牛的对白：
结婚前：他：万岁！终于到来了！我都等不及了！
她：我可以离开吗？
他：不，你甚至想都别想！
她：你爱我吗？
他：当然！
她：你会背叛我吗？
他：不会，你怎么会有这样想法？
她：你会吻我吗？
他：会的
她：你会打我吗？
他：无论如何都不
她：我能相信你吗？



结婚后从下往上看

ha,today outing wif my cousin is damn funny..i met a lot of ppl..i met miss teo..i felt damn scared,coz i still owe her some hw...haizz,den i met my pri schu fren oso..haha.then my cousin n i go KBOX..its terrible ..

haha,today i watch fantastic four 2 which is super super super nice..the stoneman is like soooo cute..anw i just bought a sun glass finally....finally...k,i m thinking of buying a beach pants.scho is gonna reopen ..sian..must kiss good bye to my hair..haizzzz

haha,just bak from china..and buy a lot of presents for my frens,,,,hahaha,,,,,tat all for today

guitar is damn cool..i learn ju hua tai and qingtian already..but ju hua tai must sing oso, which u all noe i really cannot..lol..anyway, i miss my little cousin a lot..he's 7 this yr..veri veri cute n chubby..always see him will pinch his cheeks, but he always irritate me, but still like him alot..ha..nxt time show u all his photo..
will be coming bak to s'pore this sunday..so if u all want anything else better faster tell me, here the things cheaper..when i come bak to s'pore must go kbox..anyone interested?haha..can contact me..
the weather in china not bad, at least better than s'pores one..more cooling..s'pore really v hot, here not really lah..oh ya jus realise 4 more yrs n i can dye my hair freely already..cool right? maybe i will dye a more cool colour like errr..orange? jkjk..4 yrs later come find me then u all will noe la..

haha,my life in china is veri veri busy..but erm,i mean ,i can sae "Fruitful"..i start to learn guitar...its like so damn cool man..finally i find another hobby,muhahahahahhahahaha,besides family,frens,basketball and...this is a new 1 ,now i prefer guitar to hip hop alr..guitar is cool,especially electric guitar..ha, i love it man..i will practise hard so i can play any songs tat i like..for example jay's songs..ha,now i m still learning all the basics..but still i feel happy..yeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeahyeah yeah.....haha..haha,cow,as i promise,i will bring qq tang for u..but den remember more sweet=more fat...and some story books for chen chen..sianzz..i 4get bring my excercise suit home den these few days nv even jog..omg,my stamina..haiz..go bak still go physical fitness test..loli scared of pull up onli..if u do veri few,its like PS sia...tat all for today,tml still got 5 hrs of guitar

today is a day with a lot of good news..haha..i feel veri happy for the time being...coz of e best news i heard today...realli..tat is e best news i haf heard for today...is my pray effective?lol,maybe not,but who noes..ha...haaaa.haaa.happy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyyhappy happy happy happy hapyy

a post on the day going bak china..coz of my stupid internet...onli can post by today




the time tat is needed to go bak my hometown is long and exhausting....i have to wait more than 4 hrs in beijing airport.The lan shop there is super expensive...haizz..my money..but i have no choice but go inside in order to get rid of my excesstime..however,i m more worry for another matter.it has lasted for 4 days which is a long period for fever..i should say its high fever.i suspect tat is dengue..but..but..but why *** still stay at home instead of going to hospital for a blood test..ifeel so worry..i wan to do sth yet i can do nth..i feel tat i m so usesless..when can i become sum1 tat wan to do sth and i cando sth.haiz?hope it is not dengue and u can get well as soon as possible...i wud like to see a healthy u,frankly speaking.
i go bak to china to see my grandpa,but besides this,i have nth to do...my frens and buddies are having schu and preparing for their last major exams..i m too lazy to go shopping myself..i can go shop in singapore because of GSS..haha,GSS rox man..i bought more than 5 clothes..thx to my few "girlfrens",haha..this is last secret post..i m gonna make my blog officially known..coz i think there is nota need to hide my blog alr...last time,the reason is because_________,i dun wanna reveal,but my frens confirmed noe..however,i think i am ok now alr,hence,i wan to promulgate it...
ok,i have to go..my 1 is now boarding..last sentence,i pray for u ,u WILL recover..i wun use "hope" as it is a for sure,bye!!

haha,i edit the lyrics...the name of the song is 被风吹过的脸


还记得昨天 那个夏天
狂风吹过的一瞬间
似乎改变一切
尤其是你那张脸
如今风 依旧在吹
狂风把靖绅的脸都吃吹变了形
仿佛即使闭着双眼
熟悉的脸 又会浮现在眼前
刺眼的阳光
突然演变成了温暖的夏天
狂风来的时候
不会更遥远
靖绅 连不断地在变形
狂风来到了
靖绅回首对我说声没关系
不过是一阵狂风
又再回到从前
那个被风吹变形的脸
还记得昨天 那个夏天
狂风吹过的一瞬间
似乎改变一切
尤其是你那张脸
风依旧在吹
狂风把靖绅的脸都吃吹变了形
仿佛继续闭着双眼
[熟悉的脸 又浮现在眼前
刺眼的阳光
突然演变成了温暖的夏天
狂风来的时候
不会更遥远
靖绅 连不断地在变形
狂风来到了
靖绅回首对我说声没关系
不过是一阵狂风
又再回到从前
那个被风吹变形的脸
刺眼的阳光
突然演变成了温暖的夏天
狂风来的时候
不会更遥远
靖绅 连不断地在变形
狂风来到了
靖绅回首对我说声没关系
不过是一阵狂风
又再回到从前
那个被风吹变形的脸
那个被风吹变形的脸

tml last day of debrief...finally...sufferings are end...my dad is super unhappy wif my eng and ss...sianzz..he sae he dun care about other sub..he onli care about this 2..and sae ask mi go do some reflections...haiz...when can i reach his target?damn sianz sia..

4 yrs ago,he sae if i can go temasek sec he will be veri happy liao..then after a few months..he sae he wan mi try to go duman high...ok..i follow him..but i perform badly for psle then goes into cchms...then another target has been set..but i fail to achieve it coz i nv even study for 2 yrs...my txtbks are veri new and nice...now sec 3..no matter u scored how high for other sub..they still cant cover the 2 weak subs which are import to mi...nvm..4get about it...i m not study for him...i just wan to prove to my mum tat even if i dun haf tuition..i still can do good..my knowledge is not made up of money..she always sae other ppl children no tuition just a bit lousier than mi?so big deal...let mi prove to u...

now i feel scared for tml chem..my 6th sense is telling mi tat i wun score veri fantastic for chem..haiz..hope my feeling is wrong..realli..anyway,even if u din do well...like wad i always said..its just a mye ,no big deal..i din do well for 2 mye and 2 eoy..so?i m still mi..so dun be too upset or dun be too sad...nxt time try harder.....

haha...exams are over..and today,3 ppr results are released...my results are quite poor...haiz..but at least pass for english coz the compo correct help mi....thx man...my eng onli 51.8...chi paper oso kns,66.5/90....haiz...maths 36.5 or 37/40...let see tml...i m belong to another grp.. i m one of F5...wad is F5???failure 5...mi,yuandong,jiajia,kahqi and zhongtao...haha,let c tml..go play liao..tat all

there are 4 days left....then exam will be over and happy hour will come too...exam sux sia..every1 is highly stressed..but luckily my sux paper all end alr and i feel quite relax now...yesterday i went to buy 2nd hand assessment wif joy and ze...ha,2nd hand assessments are realli cheap sia and the previous own nv do...its all blank...haha..after tat,we went to national lib,coz ze wanna c the so called "wonderful" lib in singapore..actually it's not tat good...then when we go drink some water,she saw a cute child and kept playing wif him..like mother like tat...ha,she realli can become a good mum...Born to be a pro housewife?after tat,we went to bugis street,joy bought a sponge bob T-shirt...

after exam,3it got so many clz outings,so fun...but i wun go every1 ,coz some places idun like ,for eg..east coast park...go there eat shit??nth can play there sia...

sian liao,dun wan write liao...aiya,ze hui no nid so worry for geog lah,wun die de....lol...

i have not written anything for this whole week..coz nth much happened and i m just lazy to write sumthing...and now i m quite free and i dun feel like study SS so come here to write sumthing...my dad always sae ppl will grow after problem and problem..I agree wif him but the consequences for the "grow" is quite fatal too..

For example..when u are in sec 1,u like to gossip...however when sum1 tell u gossip is not good and it will affect u...100% plus chop u wun listen..as time passes,u will be affected by gossip in sum ways..at tat moment u then realised the bad pts of gossip but u are affected by it alr...Yes,u are grown up by a bit but u have lost sumthing too...tat is maybe ur reputation...or wadeva

I have gone through a lot of this incidents not just 1...tat y i now then noticed i have lost a lot of things,not only reputation...When i just came to CCHMS,my dad tell mi not to gossip and look down on the quiet ppl and dun bully clzmates...haha,but i ignore all of his sentences...I dun wan to explain anything for myself coz its all my faults but just tat I felt quite regret for my all childish acts...

When u are in pri schu,u are "guai" and "toot",but when u come to sec schu,u change and sumhow u will look down on the unchange grp...and tat is mi,i did tat...haha,so childish...if i realli can return to sec 1,i will like heck care??all my stupid acts give mi many enemies but i cant deny the fact i have learnt many thing throughout all the incidents...but den now my reputation is like shit,partly is becoz i m ex-basketball ppl...To many ppl,all basketballer sux...another childish act..most ppl in basketball sux donot mean all ppl sux..its just like 1 singaporean sux,i cant sae all singaporeans sux..u onli can refer to tat person but not the grp..

now i realli wanna free from all the 八卦 and rumours and wadeva sht...u wan gossip?dun come and find mi...u wan tell mi sum1 sux?dun come and tell mi,i cant sae sum1 sux base on ur opinion....onli thing u can tell mi and the onli thing i can listen is about their look and action,coz tat 1 i can see by myself but character and wadeva is all inner and must 相处 first ,so i onli trust myself...

Haiz,1 more pt..I feel realli sorry for the ppl i hurt in last 2yrs...moon will become round,and ppl will change...please dun stay in e past...When ppl hate mi,its either misunderstanding or my faults...i prefer is my faults coz i can change..misunderstanding is e worst and normally ppl will not listen to ur explanation.....

Life is accompanied wif problems...读万卷书不如行万里路。。一定要经历了才会成长。。在此，我由衷的祝各位八卦王一路顺风。。。。

人生真的是变幻莫测。
昨天的朋友，可能就是今天的敌人。
昨天的路人，可能就是今天的朋友。
有谁能够预知未来？
哎，人生本该无常，
何必想尽办法窃取天机呢？
只有未知的路才是正道，
如果你能预知未来，
那么你便想改变未来，
因此未来恐怕再次成为一个未知数。
所以既然是未来，我们何必想太多？
敞开心胸，向前走，
有荆棘，怎么办？
一把刀，砍断它。
砍不断，又如何？
两个人，加把劲，
一起来，斩断它。
世界最坚韧之物莫过于情，
怎么斩它，砍它，烧它，
它还藕断丝连。
就算前面等待的是狂风暴雨，
只要同心协力，依然度过。
哭过，笑过，呆过，傻过，疯过，
但是我依然是我，
任何事情无法战胜我。
累了吗？够了吗？
朋友，家人会为你提供凉亭，
暂时的为你遮风挡雨，
温室的小花不能成长，
走出，迈出，自己的步伐。


haiz,i cant get into slp,just write sth rubbish,haha,sianzzz,damn slpy but just cant sleep..haiz,hope is not a bad sign of sth..hope buddha bless mi..

week 4 is gonna end...haha,MYE is also coming..and i should start to prepare for exam..I dun like last minute prepare for exam as it is too stress for mi.Now I must convert my brain alr.Last time i onli use 3% for study..I shd convert it to 90% as bio is quite tough and i m not realli good at it.ha,I must start pia for 2 weeks?and the sufferings will end shortly..These 2 days we get back our phy and chem test results?i guess a lot of ppl are hurt for getting low bah,but it all past tense alr.It is just 2 tests.It means nth.Hence try harder nxt time.

I noe wad u are trying to tell mi..But I feel tat i m now happier..seriously..I m not sad or wadeva,but I just wanna be myself,I nv force myself do anything or think anything.Just be myself and i feel super relax..wad u see is the real mi,so nth is gone wrong.. I like to think,both study and wadeva..so i will think a lot out "bound" things?so although in other ppl eyes,i look like troubled ,but i feel quite good when thinking so nvm lah..haha

haha,today,nth happen..so sianzz.just tat my house got another world war..and the reason for the war is sth happen 5yrs old..lol,my stupid parents...dun tok about tat lah..following is wad my dad think of child in chinese,if i translate it,not meaningful liao

"孩子并不是一个风筝，而是一只鸟，他们有自己的思想，有权利决定自己的未来，那就是所谓的“人权”，而什么是风筝？风筝是一个死的东西，需要线来牵住，有线来决定他的高度。他没有思想。所以孩子呢，正好与风筝恰恰相反，所以父母们不能以对待风筝的方法来对待孩子，他们的未来由他们决定，像小鸟一样自由自在的飞，我们父母所能提供的只是一个住所，当他们飞累了，受伤了，一个供他们休息养伤的地方。”

by Mr Yao Zhan Xin,6/4/2007



haha,tat all,do you agree????

haha,today we received our progress report..haha,the results are like shit like tat...i get 13 pts for L1R5..so lousy sia...L1R4 is onli 6 pts,L1R5 is 13...becoz of the stupid combined human..i onli got D7 sia...becoz e clit no test..the results are all from SS which i m sux at it..coz i cant agree wif all the things stated in the stupid txtbook..sad..when i hate any sub,i will sux at and nv get beta..haiz..but olevel must has 1 humanitiy..so i still nid to improve my combine humanity...

haha,船到桥头自然直..nvm lah...its just CA onli...Good fri is coming and it is not related to mi,so good fri is just 1 free holi to mi and i can rest or hang out...most probably i will go out wif ze and joy to bugis ..hope my buddy chee koh pek can along----ws...ziyi is not available sia...he must go 扫墓...i m required sia coz my grandma 1 is in china..haha,time realli flies...my grandma passed away almost 2 yrs..haiz,i realli miss her.until now,i m still regret tat i nv went back to china during my sec 1 june holi.then i nv saw her again.just becoz i m addicted to MAPLESTORY in sec 1.just becoz of the stupid game.i will be regretted for the rest of my life..so now,no matter wad o level,A level or even my future gf birthday or wadeva..i will go bak during holi as long as my grandpa still there..u must be amazing y i m so regret about it right..coz i m brought up by grandparents and i m closer to them compared to my parents..when i was young,my dad work like siao to earn money..then my mum doesnot like mi coz i m too irritating,always follow her and she has no life..so they threw mi to my grandparents..everday grandma did all the cooking when she was 70+ and grandpa looked after mi to go out play when he was oso 70+..i haven repaid my grandma and she passed away..isn't it the most regretted thing?

haiz,but no matter wad..ppl who still stay alive is still the most import,but tat does not mean i wil l4get the past..let mi bury it into my heart and remember it 4ever...now i m telling all the ppl who wanna commit suicide.if u dun wan to stay alive,spare ur life and ur organ to ppl who still wanna stay alive but cant..

today..i feel so relax..all these thx to joy...last night she toks to mi for very very long..now i feel so relax..and relieved?i m getting stupid and stupid when there are matters concern to her...maybe..hais..dunnoe wad to sae.it is just like when sumthing happen,i will htink of a lot lot lot possbilities and list out all solutions in my mind..but of coz,some of solutions are ridiculous.

now i must sae sth about js and lo zi ping...let mi think..i think js nxt target is lo ziping..and i think his chance is reali realli realli high..(whoever agree wif mi,give mi claps)and they are going to shan xin in china together for the HSK schoolar ship..haha,funny right..same plane,same hotel,same "room"?same "Bed"?maybe ..who noes.i guess both of them are bubble gum...haha.stick together and cant take away...js sae nicole oso say the same thing..c wad i mean..not even mi the good fren notice..other ppl oso notice...

JS GO GO GO,i realli realli support u...bubble gum onli suit bubble gum...fate bring u 2 together.GET HER HEART...AND I,WS and ZY will laugh 4eva...let mi win our bet just for 1 time leh....we 2 like have a lot lot bets alr..but i nv win u even 1 time leh...give mi a chance..go for ziping...anw it hink u alr fall for her liao...hahaha..
人有悲欢离合，
月有阴晴圆缺，
此时古难全，
但愿人长久，
千里共婵娟。

even jessica dun wan u...dun be sad..u are still beta than mi..jia you..ziping is urs...hahahaha

2006年4月24日。。。一个平凡的日子但却有着不平凡的经历改变了我。。。2007年3月31日一个不平凡的日子但却有着平凡的经历亦改变了我。。。爱之深，恨亦深，原本用来形容一个人。。。但是形容二人也可以。。原本在爱情的国度里没有对与错，只有爱与恨，并不是所有事情都有理由。有的时候，第一印象，误会等等，许多因素都导致了最终的结果。

有人说爱是一种习惯，有人说爱是一种感觉，也有人说爱是一种想法，而我认为爱其实只是一种牺牲。“爱”的范围很广，当你可以为亲人牺牲之时，那么你是爱他们的。在大众心中的爱其实是一样的，只不过对象变了，变成了一个陌生人，当你想着她，可以为她牺牲时，你可能已在不知不觉中爱上了她。
　　上一段其实只是在第一阶段。
　　第二阶段中，你面对了许许多多的困难，“冷漠”、“无情”、“误会”等等的东西接踵而来，你还能继续站在原地或前进而不后退吗？那么恭喜你，你来到了第二阶段。。。
　　第三阶段很简单，只有一个岔路，“接受或拒绝”。。。
　　中上所述，其实只不过是些代表我的理论，没有多大的实际性，其实最简单的办法就是问问自己，摸摸自己的良心，“你爱她吗？”
　　

　　爱往往是自私的，只想着自己如何可以被接受，却忽略了对方的感受，这种做法是愚蠢的。回想下，你当初为什么爱她？你在想想在你的攻势下，你最喜欢她的东西消失了吗？可能已经无声无息的消失了。你后悔吗？既然后悔，要如何做呢？“杀”了你自己，置之死地而后生，把你的心挖个洞，埋起来。。接下来，就交给你自己来搞定了。
　　
　　其实当我们来到世上之时，总会有一个人与你有三世情缘，但是能找到对的人却少只又少，眼睛不要只看前面，有的时候看看旁边，看看后面，可能他／她已经来了。。。。。



　　呵呵，将近一年的时间，我才领悟出了这么少东西，果然悟性不太高，其实我并不期望任何人可以了解我，因为我了解自己，我知道自己在做什么，“我”已经消失了，埋起来了，你说还能挖出来吗？就算出来了，能保证不腐烂吗？

《我一直都在》歌词
遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃我也会给你
我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖

Hate mi pls...please hate mi more...i will feel less guilty...after hating mi,the things will be buried and u will return normal..sorry for wad i did to u..but luckily i achieve wad i wan...so thx lor,i just promulgate this can liao....dun tok about this

ha,31/3 alr...my birthday is coming sia...each yr my parents sae i can have 1 wish in my birthday...and the wish will come true..but this yr,my wish most probably wun come true...the wish seems a bit ridiculous...ok lah,dun tok about birthday..

yesterday i pon schu...coz i woke up late..then i felt damn lazy to go schu so nv went schu sia..then i went to schu to meet up wif yuandong,yaowen,jiajia,kok,zhongtao to play bball...it realli fun sia...when i m defencing jiajia,jiajia push mi..and my head hit yuandong teeth..then his teeth hit his lip..then his lip end up like donald duck like tat...then we kept imitate him,imitate the way he tok ...damn funny...then we oso keep laugh at yaowen coz his action is realli veri disgusting...he doesnot look like a professional basketball player..but he got score a lot..i cant deny the truth...i love the feeling to play ball wif them...i have no stress when playing wif them..not like playing ball wif basketball ppl...basketball ppl will keep blame u if u nv score or nv past the ball to them...but they wun pass the ball to u..tat is e problem...so sianzz..but yuandong and etc are diff...we play basketball is for fun ...just to relax ourselves...

we 7 ppl drink a lot of soft drink..damn thirsty..i think 6 bottle of 1.5l drink bah...about there...i m learning how to write chinese poem...when i write my first poem..i will post it here...hope sum1 can understand...haha,first poem..i dun think it will be chim or wad..i think most ppl can understand it...

tml our clz is having a claz outing again...3IT is realli a good clz...no bakstabbing,no isolated ppl,no bitch,no bastard...every1 seems ok..although there will be clique but not realli separated in a sense...so overall,i prefer 3IT to 2CR seriously...hope all ppl in 3IT have same feeling...i hope 3IT will be a "drug-free" clz....

today is a bad luck day sia..i dunnoe wad is alvin ang problem lah...catch mi for long hairr...last yr he wun like tat 1 lor..maybe he kana ditch by his gf then find sum1 to torture..fuk sia...then chua chor loon cut my bak...walao..he no skill 1 sia...cut like dog bite 1 like tat,so ugly..make mi spend 20+ go cut hair again...2 weeks time,i cut 3 times...bo hair alr lah...so suck sia..

we just changed seating arrangement yesterday...now i sit wif edward ,then ziyi beside mi,tander sit infront of mi...i think the new sitting arrangement is much nosier than previous 1...but we just kept veri queit during chinese lesson..so tat she will think tat she has succeed in keeping us quiet...

sec 3 life is quite boring sia...tests after tests....although i m not realli stress but u will get screwed by the atmosphere surrounded u...every1 is seems to be piaing but u are slacking...sianz...these few days i m damn mentally tired..i think i realli nid 1 day rest or else i cant adjust myself alr..maybe i m not going to schu tml..i realli reall reallli nid 1 day rest...so tat i still could walk down....i must think wad i shd do next....i m lost now....Haiz....sad sia...haha.tat all for today

wa,sunday leh...tml i have to go schu again...o sht...i 4get wad i wanna write leh...lol.....aiya,today veri sianzz.i go out buy shoes hor...the shop dun have my size... wa lao...11 is so diff to get ...ok lah....dunnoe wad to write sia...ok last sentence..SS sucks...

Sat is always a boring day sia....1 whole day leh..i stay at home to do nth but sleeping and playing game...sec 3 life is like so boring...whenever u ask ppl out,the ans is always e same..."we have tests next week" or "we have tuitions"...wl eh....Got tests cant go out meh????sianzz lah..then my fren pang seh mi....cancelled basketball match tonite...wa,make mi more agitated...

yesterday is like e end of world, coz my clz got spot check...luckily i nv got caught...but sadly,zy and ws got sia..then ws fringe and back kana cut..the fringe is like shit now,and he is devastated and went for trim again..zy onli the tail kana cut and he looks no diff..he is quite lucky lah....buddha bless mi sia....i the day b4 the spot check keep saying" a mi tuo fo" ,haha...

nxt week got chem n phy tests again...2 tests again and i think follow by A maths quiz....aiyo,1 week 3 tests, siao leh....sianzz,i now just dun like to touch book at home..i just wanna fool around..maybe becoz of my aim bah...my aim is like so easy to achieve..not like other ppl.."i wan become the richest man" or "i wan become a designer" or "i wan become a teacher"....compare to them,my aim is like chicken feet..i dun even noe wad i realli wanna be nxt time..no wonder i m so slack...maybe 1 day i suddenly realised and i started to study...i now just wanna get good results in olevel..but this aim doesnot seem to motivate mi sia...so let mi just put it aside first....

ha,birthday coming sia....1 wish of happy birthday from is much more worthy than thousand of presents...ha,i think i think too much liao..4get about it...yesterday went to play basketball wif yuandong ,jiajia ,kok,zhongtao and summore...its quite fun and i like it...they are not like our schu sec 3 basketballer,keep scold u when u cant score or wad...play wif them will not have stress....but my schu shoes is becoming shty and shty..maybe i m going out to buy a new pair again tml...ok liao lah...i go watch 1piece liao

ha,today is another long day..realli long sia..from 7.35 till 4+ leh...siao 1 leh..and the lessons are boring oso..everyday i notice i m reckless...bio test is so so lah..but easier than wad i expected.i tot is like super diff 1..maybe i cant even pass...coz i nv study..dunnoe y leh,last nite just dun feel like study...then this morning go schu study,recess oso...wa,recess,the EDWARD from 3ly came into our clz and tok non-stop..i cant even get 1 word into my head...but nvm,i forgive him...lol...i break my record today oso...today,1 day onli, 3 teacher scold mi for my hair..and because i m so guai..i go cut hair just now..

now hair is short sia...can i sae it is botak???erm,not realli lah,compared to other guys,still consider quite long..but realli much shorter than previous 1...nvm,still got about 2 months to june holi..maybe i will go dye yellow and silver...COOL right!!haha,luckily i dunnid to go bak during june holi...haiz?should i change CCA again,maybe i go join MRL,haha,if can..stupid SK nv go IC wif mi,and i dunnoe any1 there so i oso dun feel like going....

yesterday i 4get who sae 1,i think is debi,she sae ws look like DA GE among mi,zy and him..so now zy and i call him DA GE...whenever we kana bully,he runs away first,lol...he damn scared of yukai..as yukai dunnoe siao or wad,everytime saw him will ask him return $$ but ws nv even borrow $$ from him..however because of yukai size,ws is like a coward kia..lol...he runs veri slow as we noe.but when yukai is chasing him,he can be the top runner in our schu..so nxt time,must ask yukai chase him...LOL,ok lah,damn tired today..dun feel like writing anymore,so tat all...good nite and have a sweet dream,haha,just like mi yesterday dream about a dead people and some frens and ....

haiz,today damn sian..2hr assembly leh...we learn nth 1 lor..onli keep hearing the teacher tok tok tok tok tok tok..interminable suffering..i today then realised i realli got lovesick leh.last time ws and zy sae i still dun believe..but until today i realised tat...just 1 look ,realli just 1 look can make mi happy whole day..worse than last yr...aiyo,i so stupid 1 sia..so lame..ai ya..nth to write leh,just tat schuwork is getting tougher and tougher..but i still damn lazy to study..no motivation sia...sad......thx ze hui for help mi print all the stuff.haha,i will repay u if u wan

today i went bak schu for our bio lesson..combine wif 3LY,JT,EP.....the lesson is quite boring and i din realli pay attention,coz it is not really diff mah....go read book can understand liao...then js,zy,ws and i sit in 1 row and no ppl sit around us...emilene sae we 4 look like F4....lol...so AA(attract attention)...all js lor,zy n i follow him..then he choose the play where LY ppl normally sit..but this time most of LY ppl sit at where normally IT ppl sit...then where js ,ws,zy n i sit is like extra place...no ppl wan de...

then zhong ming sit behind us...we 4 keep ask our $375 bak from him...coz last time they find a laptop and they could go sell it and get $$...but when zhong ming saw it ,he took it away and return to teacher...so he makes us lose $375...LOL.he keep sleeping..he sleeps for 2 hrs...i m wondering why he comes for the bio lesson...lol...so weird of him..

LY teacher is like siao de...pia until like tat...today from 9am till 5pm have lesson..it is worse than normal schu day...haiz,i pity js and all my frens sia...must bear wif the boring lessons,IT is good sia..a clz makes up of slackers...most ppl in 3IT are slackers like mi...nv nv nv study 1...and i wun study b4 exam oso ....ha,maybe i can go bak schu to have detention during term 3 holi...

i should consider it sia..hahahaha,holiday is gonna end..nth much happen...onli have fun 1 day and its mon...the day go kbox wif zehui and joy...

oya,today we also go PP eat together,and sadly,i m the onli guy..all pang seh mi..edward sprain ankle and kok wei forget about the meet up..zy and ws will nv come 1...haiz,make mi feel a bit BU ZI ZAI...

today is veri sian again...the clz outing is like sht?damn sia..regret going sia..shd stay at home and sleep...ok lah...tat all for today...just drink red wine andnot feel like writing so nvm lah...hahaha

hahaha,finalli...i have some fun today,realli.....today is alr 3rd day of holiday but its first day i have fun in holiday....today i went to KBOX wif ze and joy in Somerset....the price is like sht sia...$16 onli can sing 4 hr.....but we realli have fun....actualli ze sing de not bad lah...she tells mi she sing veri lousy de...but actualli not bad lah...her voice make mi recall 1 of the star,but just cant remember her name...i realli realli forget her name...Then joy is like super super high...lol

She sings also veri good..no wonder can go into 2nd round of talent time...haha,ze is so lame...keep sae she got blubber and not feel cold...actualli she feels cold...she got shiver?ha,nv pay much attention...i lend her my shirt she oso dun wan...lol...

then we went to shopping ,erm fool around...then we saw joy's sister and her bf...her bf was not veri tall...erm,actualli i cant imagine tat he is sec 3....but nvm...every1's taste is diff...so non of my business...we also got saw Zheng YU...

joy ask mi if i am the kind will love sum1 forever de,even if she marry...hahaha,so weird...i dun realli dare to think about tat question,seriously....my grandma confirm kill mi if i nv marry...i m the onli grandson in my family...future...future....it seems veri far away...but actualli it will come veri fast...so i dun dare to think about future,erm i can sae is i dun wan waste my time to care about the unknown future...i just care about this moment...and still the same sentence"i go by feeling",love jiu love lor...dun love jiu dun love lor...tat shd be a best way for every1....

another boring day...sianzzz.i sianz until i go do all hw....and now,i finish all hw but...but ...i still feel damn boring...who can go out tml????call mi leh....i wan go out play leh....sport or kbox also can...just tat idun wan to stay at home.........haiz...first time i feel holi so sianzz...maybe becoz i give up computer game bah...last time i can play computer game in holi...but i promise tat i wun play computer games for these 2 yrs...and i must keep my promise sia....sooooooo sad sia.....T_T...

I miss school sia...at least in schu...i got things to do...but now...realli nth to doooooooo....so whoever wanna go out,please ask mi go out,please please please please please x 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

SAT AGAIN and a so called "long holi" come...so sianzzzz...SO sianzzz......realli sianzzz.......realli realli sianzzz........realli realli realli sianzzzz....haiz...dunnoe wad to sae...i miss my frens sia...I wanna go KBOX but no one wanna go wif mi...they onli want to go kik ball ..ball .ball..ball,everyday is ball...they dun feel sianz i oso feel sianzz.......I now realli dun understand myself liao...i am used to love holiday....but now holiday is sianzz lah sian lah......realli sianzz lah...maybe i shd fail all sub...then can go bak to schu...then if lucky enough...can ........ can........nvm

dun wan post liao...irritated by my stupid cousin...pissed off,i go calm down liao

Today is fri...and is last day of term 1...our clz onli left wif few ppl...they all go for sec 2 camp...and sunddenly clz become quite quiet...and i m not used to it...how can 3IT be quiet???lol...in this term,many unexpected things happen...i have made many new frens...I have encounter problem,after solving problems,sadness and happiness come respectively...so,term 1 is full of happiness and sadness...but it is a fruitful term..compare to sec 1 and 2...now then i realise when u just look at ppl gd points but not bad points...u can make fren wif them...learn to accept their bad points coz no one is perfect...

As usual,holiday is followed by homeworks..and this time,there is realli realli realli a lot lot lot of homework..i m thinking to pia finish tml...if i can...

Ok,now tok about my family in term 1,my dad still can crap a lot even if he sae he is veri stress and tired...my mum is still damn pro toking on phone..just break her own record....6hr non-stop toking on phone...i pity my dad,telephone bill sia...

then my love route is as sucky as b4..no improvement sia...nvm...i m still young,i m full of time..
although a stupid stone block mi...i have plenty of time..each day i break a big stone away...after a few yrs maybe...the big stone will be carried away...maybe a bright and smooth route is waiting for mi..so i will nv give up...ok so all for term 1....

nxt term i will start to study...the aim is not to win sum1 but not to lose to sum1....term 2 will be a short term sia...onli 5 weeks lesson then start mid yr alr...time realli fly..maybe u blink ur eyes again..u are in JC alr..then u blink again,u marry...follow by sleep forever in coffin..life will just pass like tat...but how will our future like??do you wan a lot of $$,or dunnoe wad sht high certificate or just live happily..?i choose 3rd 1...coz tat is my mission..if i study hard can make myself happier,i will go ahead and study..anw,still the same sentence"i go by feeling.."i m looking forward to the clz outing in holi,but sian,no1 wanna go KBOX...walao eh,escape is like dunnoe go how many times liao...i 2003 1st time go there..the facilities are the same until today...ok,last sentence,maybe u think my aim veri weird coz they are the same but actualli got a bit different..u can go figure it out urself..:X)

YEAH...2nd last day of term 1...holiday is coming~~~~~should i be happy or sad???in sum ways,holiday is sian de lor...cant see frens,cant go out often but stay at home...doing nth.luckily i can go play basketball full court match wif frens....i m looking forward to tue clz outing..although i dun realli like to go there...singapore boring theme park----escape...i have gone there for dunnoe 1000 times..but the facilities are still the same...haizzzz.damn sian sian sian sian...

Our new maths teacher is sux...his lesson is damn boring sia...E maths leh...all damn easy de..he thinks we are stupid arh...just a few laws,repeat 3 days....practice is better lor,just like Mr So...5 mins finish talking liao...I LIKE HIM SIA...haiz...he gives us a stupid surprise quiz..but the question is like shitttt....what is the radius of moon?how many blood cell in each mcl???how small is a dust mite??ARE WE HAVING SCI???EVEN IT IS SCI,WE OSO HAVEN LEARNT...WTF lah....

then today SS test is like so damn diff...maybe becoz i m against singapore government....i m realli against it...sum ppl may sae coz i come from china..but i tell u,i m against china government too...my dream government is the country in Europe...the government there is a caring government...although tax is high,but will pay bak to u...give $$ to support ur children to go schu...wad do ppl look for when they are alive????of coz 1 word-----happiness....happiness is lack in many singaporeans and chinese becoz of the stupid ass stress.......aiya,dun tok about it liao...getting angry and angry...

Last night,ze ask mi how come i m so obesessed over her?my ans is dunnoe..i today whole day think about the ques,and i still cant come out wif an ans...then i give up liao...y everything must have an ans...not neccessory right??somethings can just go by feeling...Love then love...hate den hate...tat will make ur life easier...just like the JERRY in i am not stupid 2...he everything wan an ans,in the end he everyday so trouble...i just come out an ans...how come i m so obsessed over her???becoz..i love her lor...simple ans just like tat...

today morning i m discussing the topic of "flirt" wif my dad...his opinion is realli great...most gal dun like flirt ...but have u ever thought why some ppl are flirt??coz they haven found the mr or mrs right in their life...just tat they are on the way of finding..maybe they just have feeling towards sum1 easily,so they are called "flirt"..but wad if they find their mr and mr right???they will stick to him or her right???ha,my dad's opinion is realli good sia...everything is 2-sided..this is wad he teaches mi...last time i look into problem onli 1 side...then veri agressive...but it is true tat everything is realli 2-sided...just like a chinese idiom(if you can figure out wad i m typing)"huo4 xi1 fu2 suo3 yi3,fu2 xi1 huo4 suo3 fu2"....for eg..when u hate by many ppl...u will think u are a bad ppl,god is unfair to u...but the other side is u can learn many things through it...god gives u a chance to learning sth to make u more mature...so still tat sentence" everything is 2-sided"...wad is the diff between optimistic and pessimistic...optimistic ppl is full of happiness while the other 1 is full of sadness...so which 1 u wanna mi???

So,if u meet some problem and feel down...try to think of the 2nd side of the problem,maybe u will feel beta...god is fair...if god make u bad luck today,he will make u good luck tomorrow.....

Maths lesson is getting boring and boring....the new trg teacher teaches veri veri veri slow...and it makes mi falling asleep....E maths leh...Mr So onli take 2 periods to finish 1 chap...he takes to periods to finish a part of the chapter...erm,just a few laws actually...waaaaaaaaa,damn sian.....But chemistry is getting fun and fun...i LIKE it..it rawks...actually all sci rox...just tat physics experiment is veri sianzz...3 months alr...keep repeating same experiment...A PENDULUM...

I feel regret to join drama for creative arts sia....i learn nth 1 siaaa....i onli hear the sux voice from chua choon hung ...damn irritating...Even if i try to sleep,i oso cant...I should go join dance... Although now they are learning ballet...but 2nd half of yr they will learn hip hop...which is super good sia...

Today maths is consider super super super easy sia....comapring to our stupid clz quizes...the common test is super easy...so no kick sia..

I have only 1 good pt....and it is i have confidence...i have a lot lot of confidence...aiya,dunnoe why,before and after any exam,i think my confidence will flow out sia...hope i can spare it to ppl who do not have confidence....

Tue is always a sux day...6 periods of boring lesson....The teacher is talking non-stoping with all the craps...but today,bio is fun coz we do experiment...pig live is disgusting sia...the smell is "nice"...haha,eng test result releases leh...and it is unbelievable tat i got 35/40.....I m shocked coz it is the first time i get so high for eng...anw ziyi score full for eng....but his chinese is like veri badly done...but he oso dun care..just like mi...ws,zi,and i will nv care for results...coz we believe "dun cry over the spilt milk"...today Mr So give out the maths quiz paper and it is a super sad story...Sheena crys over it coz she onli manages to get 1/20....Aiya,she crys leh...sad sia...girls like to cry over bad results=.=...maybe guys just cant understand how they feel when they score low...anw,i also score below my target,onli 15/20...stupid Mr So sae wad my graph not smooth even though my point and calculation all correct.....

Today during flag raising is damn funny...Our clz got 15 guys...Then our form teacher is counting the no. of guys...normally guys stand behind and girls stand infront...then she is asking us why there are onli 14 guys in our clz....then she suddenly think of LingXiang,then ask us where is LingXiang...THen we sae he stands wif rachelle everyday..then she laughs uncontrollably....Can you why she laughs??it is obvious...and i dun give any comment...

Love realli can make sum1 stupid....sumtimes,u may do lot lot lot of things,make fun on urself or tell jokes,u just wanna get a smile from her...AREN'T u dumb????of coz ,u are...but u are willing to be dumb so nvm lor...today,ah siang buy her a ipod...from our views,he is stupid..he is wasting $$,or wadeva some critisms....but wad if u stand on him position???maybe he spend 300+,400+ just to buy her happiness...coz she will happy if she has it,she will be joyed...tat y,sumtimes,love can make sum clever ppl become dumb...then the gal is saying maybe she will return to him to make him give up...Is it so easy for sum1 to give up the gal???Of coz no lah...when u wan to kill sum1,u stab him once he oso wun die...if u stab him many times,he may die and may stay alive...this must depends on the how much u love her?maybe the gals are doing the right thing...
coz they dun wan him to waste so much time on a chanceless 1...but,as wad i sae...love can make ppl dumb..so when u become dumb..every thing concern to her is meaning while it is kinda wasting of time in other ppl eyes...

Love realli can make ppl lose their direction,so if u still single or dun haf crush,dun sae if u were him,u wun do the same thing...maybe at tat time,u will do sth which is more dumb than wad he has done....

E Clit is getting fun and fun...when i read the poem, i have thought a lot of thins...reali realli a lot of things...maybe becoz my dad is study literature,i get the genes from him...sumtimes,a very diff poem,i just read a few times,i roughly can understand wad the writer is trying to tell ppl...I have nv regret to choose E Clit...summore,today joy and jin ming read a love poem together...and they "pei he" veri good according to the teacher,just like a pair of couples..but it doesn't suit right???if i m not wrong,jin ming haven reach puberty sia,i think he shorter than joy leh...haha,i feel veri bad sia...nvm..dun laugh at ppl,i had been short for 10 yr+....when i m in pri 1,i not even reach 1 m...haha...tat all for today...TML WILL BE A BETA AND HAPPY DAy....


ANW,WISH ALL THE BEST TO PPL WHO ARE HAVING MATHS TEST TML....

Monday is such a long and exhausting day.....We have erm 7 periods lesson...haha,damn boring sia...Den the assembly is super super super boring becoz of the dumb principal....His talk is much more effective than "An mian yao"....If u cant sleep,record his talk and listen b4 u go to bed...i m sure tat u will have a good sleep....Summore,i dunnoe noe why my place there is filled with perfume and reek...So disgusting sia...Luckily,teacher tells us tat the schu will amend the scheldule which is a good news to ppl like mi...SLACKER...

After school,i go to bugis wif WS..he wants to go buy Ipod then i go the "GUAN YIN TANG" to "QIU QIAN"...haha...as usual ,i ask about my study n L.O.V.E....Last time i go "qiu qian" is just b4 schu reopening....they sae i nid to meet sum1 to help mi in order to get the stupid L.O.V.E...but den maybe the sum1 or grp of ppl is jiamin ,joy n zehui them..so this time,it changes...It tells mi to wait ,donot take any action coz it will make the situation worse...I think it damn accurate sia...If i still take action now,i confirm die de lor..so i trust it sia,so let mi see and wait..wait for the so called "fate" to come...

Is it worth to buy a stupid IPOD which cost $294 with a 4 Gb memory??my ans is nonono....IPOD=Mp3....its kinda waste $$ to mi...4 GB=4000MB,1 song is about 5 mb...so it can save 800 songs...each song is about 5mins,so u can listen for 4000mins ,which is 66 h...66h =3+ days...can u listen to IPOD for 3days continuously???my ans is no.. so i think IPOD is kinda waste $$$$...haizz,dunnoe wad he is thinking...borrow $$ just to buy a stupid IPOD...nvm,i m just his fren and i onli can give him advise..must let himself to decide ..

today, according to JC...the reason tat i can sit wif ziyi is because both of us are lame....lol...she is not funny either...but she is a nice person anw....and she is crazy over YAN YA LUN and i keep sae yan ya lun= tay zhong ming...then 3 girls will get angry..1 is debi ,huilin and JC...i scared later they use knife and kill mi sia..

ok liao,enough liao lor..now nid to go do sth else...

Today is a sian day...nth much for mi to do..just stay at home to slack....just wake up...last nite,when i was reading joy's blog,sumthing came into my mind...It lasted onli 1s and i cant remember all of them...For the whole day,i tried to recall,i onli manage to recall part of it...Sumtimes,the matters tat happen to u looks hurting to u...but actually,maybe,just maybe,he/she just to help u...Some ways of hurting is some ways of helping if you think what had happened to u twice....

of coz,what she had done to mi seems hurting,but there is a chance she is trying to help mi..maybe she was influenced by joy's sad story...although maybe i m wrong,but i just wanna assume it...like tat,i will feel beta...

for example,have u ever encounter a drama,the story is like one girl like one guy,but the guy dunlike her,so he wanna her to find another 1,however the gal just dun wana give up..so the guy come out wif a method,he bakstab her,he look down on her..he makes the gal hate him,so tat she could give up and continue to live....this is touching,but there is a chance tat this will happen in our real life....

However,by doing tat,wad if the gal cant stand up again??or commit suicide?the guy will regret for his whole life....so sumtimes,we shd do nth to the matters concern to love...God or Buddha had already written the story,why should u try to change...let just wait and see,open your eyes big,so tat u can spot ur mr right or mrs right....but normally,most ppl cant find,as they are deceievd by sumthing which i dunnoe....so when ur fate comes,even if u try 10000 times to reject it...both of u will still come together....

Last week fri night,i have thought to give up due to ....erm,dunnoe,MoodSwing??and Zehui still said she can introduce mi girls.....LOL,it sounds like i m super despo....but sumtimes I think some girls,some girls,i m not refering to all, they take guys just like money machine.so sad lah...
I m not despo sia...I can wait for 1 yr,then y not i wait for 1 more yr,if still fails,1 more yr i oso dun mind....HA,actualli i dunnoe,i just wanna go by feeling coz i will feel happier by doing tat...If u walk against ur will,u will feel damn pain,just like wad i did in sec 1....My mission is live happily wif my family...so i must live happily on myself first..TML is unknown,if u commit suicide today,ur TML will nv come and IT will remain as UnKnown..so no matter wad happens to u...NV NV NV NV haf tat tot....God is fair...No1 will succeed without going through problems...Just like Edison,1 of his ears is deaf...Life will be beta IF you trust it.....

nxt week has many tests again if i m not wrong....I m not sure anw coz the tested subject i dun care 1....tml got eng vocab test..i damn scared sia...later must study the stupid blue book again...so many words..but she onli test 40 words...how can she expect us to remember all...u think i genius arh...crazy sia...haiz,the Mr So ask mi to attend Olympaids which i damn dun wan lor...last yr i go trial,i write nth on the test ,then just hand in....so boring lor..den he ask mi how old i m..i lie to him and sae i m 19...i think he believes...m i look realli tat old???aiiiii,kinda hurting....NVM,take it as MATURE...

Ha,i notice i become older in these few day again...Talk like an old ah pek,so sad sia....:'(If summore problems come to mi,i think i will tok like a old tomb alr...LOL...anw,i noticed i have so many frens stand beside mi alr..which i realli feel veri veri veri happy....If i m in sec1...no1 wud care to ask mi wad happen or showing any care to mi....but now...REALLI THX TO ALL OF U....
ookkkk,tats all for today,nid to study the stupid vocab alr....in the end.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOY AND WENHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat comes again.....I used to dislike saturday in this yr...but now..i like it a lot..i nid some time to cool myself down...and Sat and Sun are the best time for mi to cool down....many ppl sae its just a minor problem..why my reaction is so great...my ans is dunnoe...just tat when u noe the problem...u will feel veri down,realli veri veri down.....anw,i m not an awkard guy...I dare to face the problem,i dare to face the consequence...there is an idiom in chinese is "tian2 wu2 jue2 ren2 zhi1 lu4",i will be ok on mon...bak to the irritating guy again...sum ppl will be disappointed obviously...but i wan to be happy...problems are just something god gives mi a lot,but nvm,I will solve all of them...

GOD GIVE MI 1 problem,I GIVE GOD 10 SOULUTIONS TO THE PROBLEM...and tat is me.....
i have face many many problems b4,no reason tat i will lose to this so called stupid problem...sumtimes,if the problem is not solved,tat doesnot mean u r a white elephant,just tat the time to solve is not reach yet..hence just wait quietly...this is wad i come out in these 2 days..
when will the time to solve this prob reach???erm,i dun realli noe...but i think it will come soon...my 6th sense told mi liao...and i think got some weird part about this prob...n i nid to find out...

Life will still continue without u.....but there will more happiness if u were around...Life will still continue without usual yaoyinuo...but my family will not continue without mi..so i must "jia you"~

problems is getting more and more...just last nite...i deduct tat my life is a fiasco,I cant do anything good....Academic results are lousy,CCA is sux too..Character is a failure oso...ha,maybe i m so called rubbish of society..maybe i should commit suicide...but i m tat silly...it doesn't suit mi.....
1.in sec 1,i think i m hated by many ppl....summore i m stupid enough tat i dunnoe even noe the reason....

2.becoz of tat,in sec 2,I tried to change,then i m hated by lesser ppl...

3,in sec 3,i still dunnoe,maybe i will hate by another grp ppl...and for now,i m noe one person disklike mi alr...haiz...ppl always sae "failure is mother of success",but y i have more failures than other ppl??good luck is always far away from mi...maybe god think i m worth to give any luck...haiz...maybe i should not even my mouth....if I dun tok,maybe i wun dislike by any1....

however,even though i m surrounded by many problems....I still nid to walk even if i am alone....
last night,a bad news which i m scared for long time has been confirmed...although my stupid 6th sense tell mi the bad news alr,i still feel very upset....maybe..just maybe....I should not do anything..if god give mi a chance,i wan to go bak to Jan...and i will remain like tat..i wun take any actions.....but now all of them are useless....tml will still come...I have realli no time for mi to sad sad sad sad or devastated...I must think of some solutions...maybe the solution will make the situation worse...but there is a chance tat i will success...even if 1%,its enough....After i walk through this,i will grow up again...i will understand some other "ren sheng dao li"....just like last 3 yrs....i have grown up and become old....

today is 8th day and the interval may last forever.........

The stupid rain has lasted for 1 whole day... and becoz of it,we miss our PE...we miss our onli PE...i feel so sad....and instead of having free period,we have E geog----a subject tat not relate to mi....miss Gan keeps talking while i m listening to music..haha~Gina bring a book wif all the horoscope thing and some " Xin li ce yan"....from the way u eat can detemine if you are a "se lang"...luckily i eat very fast,so i m not "selang",lol~~~and a lot of funny things inside the book....

Yurong buys sheena a packet of sweet which is super nice...I keep ask sweet from her hence after 1st period...the 1 packet alr empty...haiz,tml must buy another packet return to her........My mum is going bak to China tonite....for 8 days onli...haha,nvm,i got 8 days good life~~~..coz she hand the ATM card to my dad..who spend $$$$ without thinking de...After my mum come bak,she will sae"#$%^&*(#$%^&*#$%^&" again...it happens over and over ....and i m used to it.....

last night,i went to TM wif yb to buy birthday present for joy and zy..then my mum saw us...when i reached home,she kept ask who was tat?which clz?height?got photoes or not....WL,so irritating and she is not my gf lor...went out wif fren also must report to her....haiz?wad if i nxt time haf gf,do i nid to tell all my scheldule????

problems will grow up wif you..the older you are,the more problems u will haf....and i m like tat....if i cant solve the stupid problem...i wun tok to her...not even sae "hi"....today is 7th day...ha,c how long i nid to solve my stupid problem....

today is a short day,but a day tat is full of boring lesson...first period is e clit...2nd is maths ,then follow by eng ...4th period is chem and physics at last....physics is like super sianzz.....u just listen to the teacher tok...luckily i got a nice chair ....veri soft....HA,tml got PE which is fun....it is funny when you see 27 girls play captain ball at same time within an area of erm..erm..30msquare....have you ever wondered why they will shout when they are holding on the ball??today during eng,we watch news about babies....babies are cute and lovely~~~.....i love babies sia....I wan 4 children in future ha..if my wife is willing to give birth to?

I realli cant bear onli child...maybe becoz i m the onli child..i noe how boring the life is...u haf no siblings to tok ,play,fight with...so sad lah....and now i m like tat....after schu,it rains heavily...and i have no umbrella~~I bring umbrella everyday in Jan,but it nv rains...now i nv bring umbrella,it rains...GOD is unfair to mi sia.....

today is 6th day tat i nv sae any single word to her....6 days leh....1 more day to reach 1 week.....ha,becoz i m thinking over sth...but i m so indecisive tat i cant make up my mind...so b4 i decide sth,i wun go sae anything to her...ha,maybe i should go for some tuition....i have some probs to cope wif all the subjects maybe...sianzz,later nid to go out to buy present for my dear fren ziyi n joy...i dun wan to go sia..my frens ask mi go play basketball leh..summore is full court leh....then yb keep ask mi go...i ask ws go he oso dun wanna go..sianzzz...

aiya,enough for today liao...

another boring day.....the interminable craps from teacher are gonna make mi crazy....especially during so called "C" lesson....wad laws and no laws,schu rules and no schu rules...just cant bear wif it......summore she is so bithcy lah....she think she veri pretty issit?c her face alr veri sian liao.....then today i meet so many idiotic teacher,ps. all female,ask mi tug in,after schu they oso tug tug tug in....sianzzz,summore,mr soon caught my hair ,sae wad veri long...then i tell him becoz of manchuria tradition,ppl cant cut hair during first lunar month...and HE ACCEPTS...ha,hope he can forget after some days then i m safe again~~...joy and ziyi birthday are coming~~one is on sun and the other 1 on fri,we want to cele for them,but its like they cant squeeze out time....

ai,sian liao....i go take a nap liao lor

RAH!!!sleepy sia...last nite,in the end,i still nv get into sleep....stay awake for whole night.......during lesson i m damn sleepy....i must keep tok in order to stay awake....during lunch break,i saw her, but i suddenly feel shy and dun dare to turn my head..i tot i wun so nervous alr..but today it proves tat i m wrong..i am getting worse..LOL...

haiz...today release 2 tests result...chem onli got 17.5/25...phy got 24/30....maybe the results are not fantastic...but i think god give mi enough luck liao..coz i din realli study,erm i can sae i nv study while weisiang study so hard still lower than mi...but joy tell mi she got 29/30 for physics...WA,pro right??hah,i feel happy and sad at same time..

i feel happy for her as her hardwork has been paid...i feel sad coz i lose to her...if i lose to other ppl i wun mind...she is diff:'(...it is very "mei mian zi" when you lose to sum1 u like..however look at the bright side...if slacker get same results as hardworking ppl...then all hardworking ppl become slacker liao lor..so god is fair~I WILL STUDY FOR NEXT TEST..i still try to cope with all of the strict teacher...they are so damn strict lor..everything oso penalise..

i keep fail my eng compos....up to now,i fail 2 compos liao..maybe march holi nid to come bak for eng tuition..so sad..i prepare oso fail..today during the stupid higher chi lecture...it is like a PUBLIC SPEAKING...i feel disgusting when i hear the 3rd speaker speak...the speech should be a ..erm how to sae,strong?but she speaks like a bubble gum...so sticky..slowly and slowly.then the 5th speaker,according to ze hui n joy,YU LE is cute while we boys all disagree..but he speak quite well...

My new name tag is coming~~On fri,when you saw mi ,please call mi "Abba Yao"

NOW 2am alr leh...you noe wad happened???I CANT GET INTO SLP....maybe is the stupid so called "ghost stories" influenced mi....human's mind could cre8 ghost...hahaha,funny right?before i went to bed,i was thinking wad if i cre8 some ghost....then i dunnoe if i got into slp or not,my mum opened the door slightly,i WOKE up SUDDENLY...i scared my mum becoz she tot i crazy or sth else...after she went away,i slp again...then same thing happened to mi again...i woke up SUDDENLY again when my cousin came bak from work.....then this repeated and repeated and repeated....then my room was full of burning paper smell which made me feel like to vomit......

reuben is a weird person...i think ,i think onli...he takes mi as a rival for some reasons.....coz its like i just wanna make fren wif him while he keeps being sarcastic....it makes mi feel uncomfortable,so now i dun realli tok to him liao....maybe he likes her oso lah but he keep deny....Anw i dun care lah,more guys like her means give her more choices...if she chooses him,onli means he is the best to her lor...

Back to my 1st part ...i TOT i was dead,coz my dad sae when a person died...he wun noe until 7 days pass......LOL,i siao de right???just read a veri touching story...but the story is in chinese,haha,i try to translate:)...

"once upon a time,there is a couple...the gal always protect the guys....one day,they went to take ship...however the ship sanks...luckily they hold a wooden plank and stay float....after 2hrs,they saw a ship passing by...they shout shout ,finally the ship notice them...the guy sae'this time,i will save u'he swim to the ship first.....the gal was so devastated coz the guy left her alone...suddenly,a shark eats the guy..the gal was saved.....when she tell the captain about this...captain told her the truth tat he saw the guy use his own blood to attract the shark to eat them...if he didnt do tat,both of them will be eaten by the shark...."

ok liaox...tat all for today....maybe today i will post again...

Ha,this is my first post,yesterday suddenly got moodswing=.=....so sianzzz,dunnoe why leh~~maybe becoz of the stupid testi sae got many ppl jio her...rightfully,i should be happy lor.this show she is good~~haiz...but i think i jealous bah.....summore...during daytime,i sleep 2 times and dream her TWO times,summore at night oso~~MY DAY is FULL of her...first time is she stead wif sum1,then i was like so devastated...2nd time i cant remember sia...3rd time i suddenly realised she has MSN,but she just dun wanna give mi....

haiz...so sian...i keep asking myself..wad if i nv met her?will I be better?maybe the ans is no~...this yr i haven absent from school which is a miracle...last yr my attendance is only 60/80..sumtimes i oso feel quite happy when she dun accept mi~~coz its like she is reaching perfect,mi leh???so lousy....

She should find sum better guy....how long will this feeling last???obviously,she dun trust sec schu love...but wad if i stupid enough,love her until university?will i get a chance???no1 noes....
Last yr,i use so long to persuade my parents to let mi go Canada after sec schu coz i can graduate 2 yrs faster....But now,I m like not feel to going....If i go there,tat means,i will lose contact wif her(although now also not much contact,but atleast can c her)...

ok lah,i stop liao...no matter wad happen,life goes on...Tml i will be ok~