i have not written anything for this whole week..coz nth much happened and i m just lazy to write sumthing...and now i m quite free and i dun feel like study SS so come here to write sumthing...my dad always sae ppl will grow after problem and problem..I agree wif him but the consequences for the "grow" is quite fatal too..
For example..when u are in sec 1,u like to gossip...however when sum1 tell u gossip is not good and it will affect u...100% plus chop u wun listen..as time passes,u will be affected by gossip in sum ways..at tat moment u then realised the bad pts of gossip but u are affected by it alr...Yes,u are grown up by a bit but u have lost sumthing too...tat is maybe ur reputation...or wadeva
I have gone through a lot of this incidents not just 1...tat y i now then noticed i have lost a lot of things,not only reputation...When i just came to CCHMS,my dad tell mi not to gossip and look down on the quiet ppl and dun bully clzmates...haha,but i ignore all of his sentences...I dun wan to explain anything for myself coz its all my faults but just tat I felt quite regret for my all childish acts...
When u are in pri schu,u are "guai" and "toot",but when u come to sec schu,u change and sumhow u will look down on the unchange grp...and tat is mi,i did tat...haha,so childish...if i realli can return to sec 1,i will like heck care??all my stupid acts give mi many enemies but i cant deny the fact i have learnt many thing throughout all the incidents...but den now my reputation is like shit,partly is becoz i m ex-basketball ppl...To many ppl,all basketballer sux...another childish act..most ppl in basketball sux donot mean all ppl sux..its just like 1 singaporean sux,i cant sae all singaporeans sux..u onli can refer to tat person but not the grp..
now i realli wanna free from all the 八卦 and rumours and wadeva sht...u wan gossip?dun come and find mi...u wan tell mi sum1 sux?dun come and tell mi,i cant sae sum1 sux base on ur opinion....onli thing u can tell mi and the onli thing i can listen is about their look and action,coz tat 1 i can see by myself but character and wadeva is all inner and must 相处 first ,so i onli trust myself...
Haiz,1 more pt..I feel realli sorry for the ppl i hurt in last 2yrs...moon will become round,and ppl will change...please dun stay in e past...When ppl hate mi,its either misunderstanding or my faults...i prefer is my faults coz i can change..misunderstanding is e worst and normally ppl will not listen to ur explanation.....
Life is accompanied wif problems...读万卷书不如行万里路。。一定要经历了才会成长。。在此，我由衷的祝各位八卦王一路顺风。。。。
人生真的是变幻莫测。
昨天的朋友，可能就是今天的敌人。
昨天的路人，可能就是今天的朋友。
有谁能够预知未来？
哎，人生本该无常，
何必想尽办法窃取天机呢？
只有未知的路才是正道，
如果你能预知未来，
那么你便想改变未来，
因此未来恐怕再次成为一个未知数。
所以既然是未来，我们何必想太多？
敞开心胸，向前走，
有荆棘，怎么办？
一把刀，砍断它。
砍不断，又如何？
两个人，加把劲，
一起来，斩断它。
世界最坚韧之物莫过于情，
怎么斩它，砍它，烧它，
它还藕断丝连。
就算前面等待的是狂风暴雨，
只要同心协力，依然度过。
哭过，笑过，呆过，傻过，疯过，
但是我依然是我，
任何事情无法战胜我。
累了吗？够了吗？
朋友，家人会为你提供凉亭，
暂时的为你遮风挡雨，
温室的小花不能成长，
走出，迈出，自己的步伐。
haiz,i cant get into slp,just write sth rubbish,haha,sianzzz,damn slpy but just cant sleep..haiz,hope is not a bad sign of sth..hope buddha bless mi..
week 4 is gonna end...haha,MYE is also coming..and i should start to prepare for exam..I dun like last minute prepare for exam as it is too stress for mi.Now I must convert my brain alr.Last time i onli use 3% for study..I shd convert it to 90% as bio is quite tough and i m not realli good at it.ha,I must start pia for 2 weeks?and the sufferings will end shortly..These 2 days we get back our phy and chem test results?i guess a lot of ppl are hurt for getting low bah,but it all past tense alr.It is just 2 tests.It means nth.Hence try harder nxt time.
I noe wad u are trying to tell mi..But I feel tat i m now happier..seriously..I m not sad or wadeva,but I just wanna be myself,I nv force myself do anything or think anything.Just be myself and i feel super relax..wad u see is the real mi,so nth is gone wrong.. I like to think,both study and wadeva..so i will think a lot out "bound" things?so although in other ppl eyes,i look like troubled ,but i feel quite good when thinking so nvm lah..haha
haha,today,nth happen..so sianzz.just tat my house got another world war..and the reason for the war is sth happen 5yrs old..lol,my stupid parents...dun tok about tat lah..following is wad my dad think of child in chinese,if i translate it,not meaningful liao
"孩子并不是一个风筝，而是一只鸟，他们有自己的思想，有权利决定自己的未来，那就是所谓的“人权”，而什么是风筝？风筝是一个死的东西，需要线来牵住，有线来决定他的高度。他没有思想。所以孩子呢，正好与风筝恰恰相反，所以父母们不能以对待风筝的方法来对待孩子，他们的未来由他们决定，像小鸟一样自由自在的飞，我们父母所能提供的只是一个住所，当他们飞累了，受伤了，一个供他们休息养伤的地方。”
by Mr Yao Zhan Xin,6/4/2007
haha,tat all,do you agree????
haha,today we received our progress report..haha,the results are like shit like tat...i get 13 pts for L1R5..so lousy sia...L1R4 is onli 6 pts,L1R5 is 13...becoz of the stupid combined human..i onli got D7 sia...becoz e clit no test..the results are all from SS which i m sux at it..coz i cant agree wif all the things stated in the stupid txtbook..sad..when i hate any sub,i will sux at and nv get beta..haiz..but olevel must has 1 humanitiy..so i still nid to improve my combine humanity...
haha,船到桥头自然直..nvm lah...its just CA onli...Good fri is coming and it is not related to mi,so good fri is just 1 free holi to mi and i can rest or hang out...most probably i will go out wif ze and joy to bugis ..hope my buddy chee koh pek can along----ws...ziyi is not available sia...he must go 扫墓...i m required sia coz my grandma 1 is in china..haha,time realli flies...my grandma passed away almost 2 yrs..haiz,i realli miss her.until now,i m still regret tat i nv went back to china during my sec 1 june holi.then i nv saw her again.just becoz i m addicted to MAPLESTORY in sec 1.just becoz of the stupid game.i will be regretted for the rest of my life..so now,no matter wad o level,A level or even my future gf birthday or wadeva..i will go bak during holi as long as my grandpa still there..u must be amazing y i m so regret about it right..coz i m brought up by grandparents and i m closer to them compared to my parents..when i was young,my dad work like siao to earn money..then my mum doesnot like mi coz i m too irritating,always follow her and she has no life..so they threw mi to my grandparents..everday grandma did all the cooking when she was 70+ and grandpa looked after mi to go out play when he was oso 70+..i haven repaid my grandma and she passed away..isn't it the most regretted thing?
haiz,but no matter wad..ppl who still stay alive is still the most import,but tat does not mean i wil l4get the past..let mi bury it into my heart and remember it 4ever...now i m telling all the ppl who wanna commit suicide.if u dun wan to stay alive,spare ur life and ur organ to ppl who still wanna stay alive but cant..
today..i feel so relax..all these thx to joy...last night she toks to mi for very very long..now i feel so relax..and relieved?i m getting stupid and stupid when there are matters concern to her...maybe..hais..dunnoe wad to sae.it is just like when sumthing happen,i will htink of a lot lot lot possbilities and list out all solutions in my mind..but of coz,some of solutions are ridiculous.
now i must sae sth about js and lo zi ping...let mi think..i think js nxt target is lo ziping..and i think his chance is reali realli realli high..(whoever agree wif mi,give mi claps)and they are going to shan xin in china together for the HSK schoolar ship..haha,funny right..same plane,same hotel,same "room"?same "Bed"?maybe ..who noes.i guess both of them are bubble gum...haha.stick together and cant take away...js sae nicole oso say the same thing..c wad i mean..not even mi the good fren notice..other ppl oso notice...
JS GO GO GO,i realli realli support u...bubble gum onli suit bubble gum...fate bring u 2 together.GET HER HEART...AND I,WS and ZY will laugh 4eva...let mi win our bet just for 1 time leh....we 2 like have a lot lot bets alr..but i nv win u even 1 time leh...give mi a chance..go for ziping...anw it hink u alr fall for her liao...hahaha..
人有悲欢离合，
月有阴晴圆缺，
此时古难全，
但愿人长久，
千里共婵娟。
even jessica dun wan u...dun be sad..u are still beta than mi..jia you..ziping is urs...hahahaha
2006年4月24日。。。一个平凡的日子但却有着不平凡的经历改变了我。。。2007年3月31日一个不平凡的日子但却有着平凡的经历亦改变了我。。。爱之深，恨亦深，原本用来形容一个人。。。但是形容二人也可以。。原本在爱情的国度里没有对与错，只有爱与恨，并不是所有事情都有理由。有的时候，第一印象，误会等等，许多因素都导致了最终的结果。
有人说爱是一种习惯，有人说爱是一种感觉，也有人说爱是一种想法，而我认为爱其实只是一种牺牲。“爱”的范围很广，当你可以为亲人牺牲之时，那么你是爱他们的。在大众心中的爱其实是一样的，只不过对象变了，变成了一个陌生人，当你想着她，可以为她牺牲时，你可能已在不知不觉中爱上了她。
上一段其实只是在第一阶段。
第二阶段中，你面对了许许多多的困难，“冷漠”、“无情”、“误会”等等的东西接踵而来，你还能继续站在原地或前进而不后退吗？那么恭喜你，你来到了第二阶段。。。
第三阶段很简单，只有一个岔路，“接受或拒绝”。。。
中上所述，其实只不过是些代表我的理论，没有多大的实际性，其实最简单的办法就是问问自己，摸摸自己的良心，“你爱她吗？”
爱往往是自私的，只想着自己如何可以被接受，却忽略了对方的感受，这种做法是愚蠢的。回想下，你当初为什么爱她？你在想想在你的攻势下，你最喜欢她的东西消失了吗？可能已经无声无息的消失了。你后悔吗？既然后悔，要如何做呢？“杀”了你自己，置之死地而后生，把你的心挖个洞，埋起来。。接下来，就交给你自己来搞定了。
其实当我们来到世上之时，总会有一个人与你有三世情缘，但是能找到对的人却少只又少，眼睛不要只看前面，有的时候看看旁边，看看后面，可能他／她已经来了。。。。。
呵呵，将近一年的时间，我才领悟出了这么少东西，果然悟性不太高，其实我并不期望任何人可以了解我，因为我了解自己，我知道自己在做什么，“我”已经消失了，埋起来了，你说还能挖出来吗？就算出来了，能保证不腐烂吗？
《我一直都在》歌词
遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃我也会给你
我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖
