Doraemon

i m officially pon school the 3rd day..ya...including last fri and weekend..i havent been going school for 5 days..ha..wad a long break it is..but i wud rather i dun have e break...Life isnt going smoothly...it just like a clock..when 1 of e cogs is stucked,everything will be stucked...there are just too many things happen..i dunnoe since when i become so weak..i cant take it anymore..at least,i know my frens better...especially tat 3 assholes..lol..1 phone call,all come ...and yt i think ur scolding has some effect on mi.."u are good,just ppl din see ur good pts"..lol..although i still cant find my good pts,thx for giving mi confidence..ya,at least u can see my good pts ,although i dunnoe wad they are..maybe i shd let time to tell mi..haha..haix..today is 3rd day for him..everything will be just ended...he has alr become ash..all e past has became memories...i regret..regret for everything..human is just weird creature..only realise when lost..ya,tat is human being..i m just too down..i cant do anything except for stoning..ya,i suck...Life is so unpredictable..some1 told mi this b4..ya,life is unpredictable..although we must look at e bright side.when all e bad things happen to u,i dunnoe how to look at e bright side..

Wad if i have a time machine..i hope i can just go back to e past..in e past,i dun have any troubles, i m always happy wif my grandparents and every1..i dun have to think a lot and i dun have to plan for my future..ya,future...haha,life is realli unpredictable...who knows abt my future..10 yrs down e road..when u go to e bugis temple pray,maybe i m just inside..sweeping e floor..haha..

i dunnoe how to get up.."you used to be so strong"...ya,i m used to be strong..but sry,yt..i know its hurting,frens only come after tat and my family..now i fall down for both,i dunnoe how to be strong..how to get up..how i wish sum1 just come and slap mi..slap mi upside and down..slap mi left and right..slap mi front and back..so i can just wake up..

tml,no matter wad,i must go to school..haix...i must put on another mask..a happy mask...when can i show my true face infront of ppl??i miss IT where i can suan ppl all i wan and no1 cares..and they just suan mi back...no wonder,ppl say sec school clz is always e best..see..another eg of realising after losing...this is super ironical..hahaa

ze hui..thx for crying for mi..although i dunnoe wad e pts of u crying when i nv cry-.-...

haha..no matter how much stuff i lost..luckily,i still have bunches of idiot frens around..

tml will be a beta day although life is unpredictable....unpredictable...unpredictable...