Doraemon

It has been a long time since my last post....

Sometimes, i really wonder what my future will be...

It's like the rate of return is so minimal that you feel like giving up...and I really do now..yet i can't..I cant let down my parents as well as my grandparents who have already passed away..the amount of hope that they put on me is really heavy..

okay..so Before 18, all my studies are for my parents and my grandparents...

However..Now...perhaps, after 18, I slowly realise what i want to be...I  want to become a doctor... I cant deny e fact that e amount of sally is 1 of the factors that is driven me to become a doctor..but it is not the primary reason..I hope i can save people..I know e pain of losing relatives..After my grandparents have passed away, i always wonder what if I m a doctor..Can i extend their lives??definitely, my ans is yes...but history cant be changed, so i hope i can save other people,regardless of poor or rich...doctor is not all abt money...many developing countries and some so called" developed countries" do not have e basic empathy to other humans....Lives are precious...

Yet now..i feel that  i am further and further from my goal...I totally have no luck..i will screw up all e major exams even though i have already studies 100 times harder..

What is my future?i dunnoe.. i m just like walking in a cave without any light of hope..The only thing i can do is continue walking instead of giving up...Hopefully.. I could find my way to get of e cave of hopeless...