Doraemon

2010-05-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since my last post....

Sometimes, i really wonder what my future will be...

It's like the rate of return is so minimal that you feel like giving up...and I really do now..yet i can't..I cant let down my parents as well as my grandparents who have already passed away..the amount of hope that they put on me is really heavy..

okay..so Before 18, all my studies are for my parents and my grandparents...

However..Now...perhaps, after 18, I slowly realise what i want to be...I want to become a doctor... I cant deny e fact that e amount of sally is 1 of the factors that is driven me to become a doctor..but it is not the primary reason..I hope i can save people..I know e pain of losing relatives..After my grandparents have passed away, i always wonder what if I m a doctor..Can i extend their lives??definitely, my ans is yes...but history cant be changed, so i hope i can save other people,regardless of poor or rich...doctor is not all abt money...many developing countries and some so called" developed countries" do not have e basic empathy to other humans....Lives are precious...

Yet now..i feel that i am further and further from my goal...I totally have no luck..i will screw up all e major exams even though i have already studies 100 times harder..

What is my future?i dunnoe.. i m just like walking in a cave without any light of hope..The only thing i can do is continue walking instead of giving up...Hopefully.. I could find my way to get of e cave of hopeless...

2010-03-29T22:59:00.001+08:00

I will really do well for JCTs...I hate this feeling..

2010-03-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today i had friendly matches with TPJC..although it's a draw, i think our standard is higher..:D I won both of my matches today but i think i can still improve more:D espcially my serve :D as well as hit more solid shots!!!

JIA YOU YI NUO:D U CAN DO IT :D

2010-03-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

jessica is srsly very cute...I love her smile:D..haha..I m crazy over her smile and her blurrness...LOL..GG, i cant resist blur cute gal=.=....

I DUN MIND HAVE HER AS MY GF...HAHA...dreamingggggg~~~~~~~~

I shd expect less:D

2010-02-25T22:26:00.004+08:00

JESSICA...MY NEW WIFE..WOHOOOOOOOOO

2010-02-25T19:47:00.001+08:00

4 more days ...

I feel like poning school everyday..

haix...

tired....

2010-02-21T23:17:00.002+08:00

I have not rested well for e past few days...so i shall give myself a short break on sunday night=.=....

k....

My life will become screwed for e nxt few months as i m busy wif 4 things simultaneously which are SAT,H3,School work and competition..

what a miserable life...

ok,i shall stop whining COZ I M A MANNNN:D

2010-02-21T00:23:00.001+08:00

4 days alr...9 more days to my target...

2010-02-19T06:42:00.001+08:00

1)当一个孤独的男孩经常对你厣厣一笑时,他已经喜欢上你了

(2)每次和你在一起的时候,他会很沉默,明明牵着你的手,却一会看天一会看云,你会认为他不喜欢你,错了,此时他眼里只有你,只是他习惯了一个人的感觉.

(3)当你在也受不住沉默的时候,你提出分手.他没有忧郁一刻便答应了,你认为他是真的不爱你,错了,他只要幸福快乐,满足你所有欲望,所以宁可忍痛退出.

(4)他答应以后,便故作一点也不在乎的,漫无经心的走掉了,但是你永远也不会知道他心里是多么难过,也许这是他真的知道世界上有一种感觉叫欲哭无泪.

(5)分手后,他每次走过你身边,都会显得更无所谓,但是你不会知道,当你转身只后,他会静静望着你的背影偷偷留泪

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(6)就在你终于知道他是多么爱你并且你也仍爱着他的情况下,你去他的廎室找他,推开门,他正在椅在床上默默叹气,你走进她他,他却顾也不顾的一把把你抱住,你笑了,这时却觉得衣襟湿湿的,你永远也不会知道,你的这个笑容,是他用多少不绵的泪夜换来的.

2010-02-16T14:11:00.000+08:00

无言独自上高山

不至绝顶不见天

人生何处不险阻

英雄无泪只登攀

拼了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

2010-02-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

CNY is around the cornerrrrr:D

Every year is about the same since I come to singapore in 2002...I can skip e various "annoying" and "tedious" steps in CNY such as visiting relatives or parents' frens...But e -ve side is the extremely little amt of my red packet $$$$...

I m turning 19 this year...What can I say about my feeling???Life is incredibly fast...haha..it's like ytd is still 2002 =.=...7 years has been past.. I hope i have grown up somehow??JC is boring...SIngapore govern is trying to follow US Highschool style to stretch our ability in all areas such as CCAs, however, they still adopt chinese traditionss which is study...so it ends up we have to do dobule work...HELL man..

I guess I am influenced by the CNY atmosphere so i couldnt get myself into study mood these few days...or perhaps there are too many things that bothers mi??ha...Nvm..I can go back to china for CNY nxt year..but will it still be e same as last time???definitely no..every1 and everything have changed...

but still..it's a good chacne to recall my childhood..heexhee..

okay..After CNY..i will really buck up..no more nonsense stuff..no more gossip...no more relationship(now alr dun have-.-)...

if i dun work hard now..i will regret later..so i prefer suffering now to regretting later :D

all the best to mi....

Let mi break this curse that i cant do well in major exam..:D

straight distinction

US university!!

MEDICINE COURSE!!!

DEC 2010:D..MONTH OF JOYNESS

2010-02-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

今天上学的时候发生了一件事情，我在巴士站遇见了一个老人，说起来也不算老，大概60多岁，胳膊上绑着绷带。。。然后他把我叫住后，顿了一下，向我要2块钱，他说他看医生后，钱包不见了，回不了家，儿女又晚上8点回家，没钱吃饭。。

他说的这些话给我的第一个印象就是谎话。。但是我还是给了他2块钱，反正2块钱对我来说不算什么，应该说对每个人都不算什么，宁可被骗一次，我还是选择了相信，如果说，他说的都是真的怎么办？？？

以前发生过类似的一件事，那个老人更老，大概70多了，当时我没给他，害我内疚了好多天。。。心想如果他真的没有饭吃怎么办？？

类似的事件还有很多，记得我去年12月去北京，我和我老爸搭地铁，然后有个老太太乞讨，我下意识的要给她钱，却发现我根本没带钱包，我让我老爸给，我爸犹豫了，并不是多少钱的问题，他怕产生连锁反应，给了这个，其他人也来要。。。就是这个犹豫，害我和他后悔了好一下子。。。

所以。。。我宁可被骗，所谓一个简单的人居住的世界就是简单的，而复杂的人居住的就是复杂的。。。

我并不是个简单的人，但是这种时候，我往往会把我的复杂世界换成简单的。。

伸手乞讨不容易，天下没有白吃的午餐，白领出卖脑力赚钱，工人出卖劳力赚钱，而乞丐需要出卖自己的自尊来赚钱。。。

好了，得继续读书，先搁笔了 :D

2010-02-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

I wish...
I thought...
I could...

these are the phrases that we always say...There is no turn backs in our lives...so there is no point of saying "i wish i work hard last time."

This is totally nonsense..

All of these are easy to understand but hard to practise...

I always wish i could have no regrets..but in reality,I have so many regrets that i dun even know where i shd start wif..

I am a stubborn person due to e environment that i m being brought up..HAHA... I dun believe in ppl's opinion, I only believe in myself...

If i m right, there is sth like "the older u are,e wiser u are"...Last time,I m totally regard it as some nonsenses..But time has proven what my parents tell mi are e shortest way to succeed...Den i have chosen the long way..I have fallen down uncountable times,yet i still have to carry on the long,difficult route i choose..

I wan to be better than my dad...He upgrade himself from a potential miner to a successful teacher and perhaps i think he is a great writer..:D So i must upgrade myself from a potential writer to a higher level...How can i be worse than him when his living condition is so harsh...

What if I work hard in lower sec???then i will most probably get into IP programme..
What if I work hard to improve my eng in upper sec???
What if ...

Life is associated with "what if"...however, the only thing we can do is to learn from our mistakes...
I think i haven found my true aim...I only have a general aim...

HAHA..ENOUGH OF EMO STUFF...NO MATTER WHAT,I WILL STILL CARRY ON MY LIFE...:D

I wish my hardwork will be paid:D although it normally wun be paid...HAHA

anw,i hate rules...:Di wan to be free from school rulesss...and i wan to study something which there is not retarded rules:D

Lastly...WHY DO HUMAN ONLY HAVE ONE HEART????

becoz,everyone only can have 1 true love:D

so where is mine???hahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2010-01-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

如何让你遇见我，在这最美丽的时刻，为这，我已在佛前求了500年，求他让我们结一段尘缘，佛于是把我化作一棵树，长在你必经的路旁，阳光下，慎重的，开满了花，多多都是我前世的盼望，当你走近，请你细听，那颤抖的叶，是我等待的热情，而当你终于无视的走过，在你身后落了一地的。。朋友啊，那不是花瓣，是我凋零的心。。。。

2010-01-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

I m J2 now...

LOL..Life is really fast.Ytd, my dad was saying tat he dint want to scold/shout at sec 2 students.Den i questioned him why???his answer was they were just too young,den i realised that sec 2 students are born in 1996=.=OMG..1996...I am like 5 years older than them..shucks*

ok,i think i am a bit off topic..YEAH i am J2 now..

the first week of school is quite useless,it's like i have not learnt anything but listening to all e naggingsss.....and First week is rather slow because i haven started to skip school???LOL..i dunnoe..

ANW..my j2 wish is straight As:D...all e best to myself..I must prove that I can do well in major exams!!!

2010-01-12T19:51:00.001+08:00

YEAH!!FINALLY I HAVE GOTTEN MY H3...

ONE STEP CLOSER TO MY DREAM!

2010-01-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

人生不如意,十之八九...

我们的人生往往不是一帆风顺...

我也有着许多烦恼

当然,我的朋友亦是如此

但是没有跌到,就没有重新爬起

跌的越多,意志力越强

这就是我的武器

塞翁失马,焉知非福!!!!

2009-12-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

诛仙使我震撼。。

果然，这种感情只存在书中。。。。哎

2009-11-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

友人の言葉は非常に重いです

2009-11-29T01:40:00.001+08:00

放手并不如想象中的容易

何时我才能自由的飞翔？？？

私は疲れていた

私は自由とします

2009-11-25T10:52:00.001+08:00

i will be having e worst cave man life nxt year:(

2009-11-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

最近满无聊的，所以把RAVE这本漫画读了一遍，乍看下只是简简单单的冒险故事，但是却让我体会颇深。。。

人与人的相遇便是一个故事的开端。。。

有谁可以为了一个誓言而守一辈子的承诺

而有谁又可以在不会相交的世界里默默的守护着那个女孩？？

漫画永远是漫画，不可能在现实中出现。。。感人的东西永远只会出现在故事中，原因就在于这是人们的幻想，所以只有寄托在漫画中。。。

哈哈，我好像有点语无伦次了。。

无论怎样，我愿意在永恒的时间里守护着那个人。。。

2009-10-30T21:55:00.001+08:00

How i wish that i m the real doraemon..haix..

JC sux...it is not for human....

2009-10-27T17:21:00.003+08:00

Promo results are super under expectation..

NO matter how much effort u have put in..

The return will be minimal..

You have to put in 1000%

The return is only 10%

How come my return isnt 10%?????life sux

2009-09-29T17:43:00.001+08:00

Promo is in 2 weeks time..i hope it comes to an end soon:D

2009-09-29T17:32:00.003+08:00

29th sept:

i have put on my braces ....it will be a long way ...

I hope by the time i can take out my braces,the effect will be great...

coz i will be going much more hard ship compare to other:(

2009-09-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

EXAM IS COMING AND ENDING SOON!!!

okay..

lazy to post..

ok..

braces coming soon..i will post photo...i guess

2009-09-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

life will nvr be smooth...

but i still have to go on...

what can i do to make it smoother??

nth perhaps...

ANW...I WAN NEW TENNIS SHOES....AND NEW TENNIS SHIRT :D

2009-09-09T15:00:00.001+08:00

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2009-09-04T09:25:00.002+08:00

time flies...and promos are around e corner..in another word...i m promoting to J2..Isnt this wad i wan?????yeah...it supposes to be..but now i dun know..haix..i cant see a clear path for my future...perhaps i have no faith in myself...i m used to be confidence..but wad if u are having failure after failure???yeah....i m scared tat i will screw up my A lvl just like my O lvl and PSLE...i m scared that i cant get into a good oversea uni .... i m scared that i cant get into course that i want to... i m scared that i m putting too much burden on my parents financial...they aren't rich...so i have to work hard to graduate faster..but wad if i cant????should i work as a part time student???although it will be much more tiring...

haix..srsly..i m lost...i m aimless..i dunnoe which 1 is e correct path for mi...but how long can i last to work hard w/o an aim???i doubt so...I m not a person wif all e good personality...perhaps..i think i have more negative than positive..my hot tempered has made mi unable to choose a lot of paths....

aiyo...life ...life..and this is life...NVM, TML WILL BE A BETTER:D..i must believe in tat...:D

CAVE MAN LIFE STARTS.....AND I WAN TO PROMOTE WIF FLYING COLOURS AND ASK THOSE WHO HAVE SAID I CANT DO WELL FOR ECONS TO SHUDDUP:D

life is meaningful..but life is just an unending chioce.....u have to keep making decision..and 1 wrong decision will just ruin your whole life...

so ya.... 无止境的等待是不是我最终的归宿———等待着不需要做决定的那一天

2009-09-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

无止境的等待是不是我最终的归宿？:(

2009-09-02T23:33:00.001+08:00

I NEED TO FIND STH LOOKING FORWARD IN SCHOOL....ZZZZZ

2009-08-31T20:33:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS E BEST DAY OF THIS YR:D..I HAVE MET ALL MY FRENSSSSS!!!!!!!COOLLLL MANNNNN....AT THIS MOMENT..I REALLY REALISE FRENS ARE E BEST....LOL..WHO GIVE A SHT IF I M STILL SINGLE???:P

2009-08-27T20:47:00.003+08:00

Chem spa has overed..it's a pretty easy spa..and i have to mix all e chemicals to kill my time...After spa,i have pw..and i swear...pw is e worst sub in my life..ANW...YES!!!!4 days holidays are coming:D!!!

anw..yanlin,dun be sad for spa alr:D it's nth!!

2009-08-26T23:06:00.003+08:00

after so many mths, i just watch e video of 童话 again..the MV is still touching no matter wad..lol..it's kinda sad..they have fate yet they cant tgt..tat's very sad..in real life, most of ppl will miss e correct 1 due to some silly reasons like errrr.i dunnoe..haha..so i should grab my correct gal tightly nxt time ..lol..no matter wad i wun let her go.. if i m able to find her in e first place..haha..

2009-08-25T09:49:00.001+08:00

i din manage to go to school today due a servere headache-.-''gosh..i dun know how i get e headache..it's like come from nowhere???sianz..i still have to go to school later for chem olympaid..if not,miss tan is gonna kill mi-.-slash mi into 1000 pieces...maybe 100000 pieces..ok..i shall stop being lameeee...lolll

2009-08-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

人生数十载,转瞬即逝...今天的我并不是昨天的我,而昨天的我并不是前天的我...我每天都在改变,只不过我没有发现,你也没有发现....可能10年后,当你回首今日,你可能会发现我的改变...人的改变就如滴水穿石,日积月累....其实人与人之间就是一个缘字,缘来缘去...许多人到头来都是有缘无份...电视剧中的爱情永远只是现代版的灰姑娘,不可能在现实社会中发生...UP中恩爱的夫妻在现实中也很难找到...但是他们代表了我们对那种生活的向往...

只要你满足....
人生,其实很简单....

2009-08-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

wow...time really flies..and it's going to be sept!!!ha,holiday is around the corner???lol...i think so...12mths ago, i was thinking when i could graduate from cchms...now i am thinking when i can with IT tgt again..i miss them..4IT is e best clz 4eva :D...JC is boring...besides going school and CCA,i do nth ..lol...i miss e day we act big in canteen..e time we laugh out loudly...e time we cut e queue in canteen stall..e time we make a fool on sec 1..e time we play scissors paper stone to decide who put e plate..e time 10 guys go to toilet tgt...haix...what had been passed will nv come back...1 yr later, i m gonna graduate from TJ..perhaps i wun miss tj as much as i miss cch..maybe i will miss??haha..i dunnoe...

ANW...i srsly have anger management problem...maybe i m too despo to win e tennis match...yet i m losing..i m losing all e way..haix..wads this man...i 4get e feeling of winning..HAIX...but nvm.i will continue train hard:D

LIFE SUCKS.......

2009-08-20T21:58:00.003+08:00

wa... i have heard some stunning news....
ACCORDING TO TAN MEI XI:

YiNUO like Tan MEI xi in secondary school=.=

WTH this is....since when i give her e wrong idea that i like her???lol ...is it so fun to ruin my reputation????

sianzzzz

2009-08-18T21:54:00.001+08:00

WAD a life this is..... My school hour is 11 hour..and i only have 50 mins break in between..so i had 10+ hour lessons today..i m tired..i m damn tired...i hate tue...:(

2009-08-17T20:08:00.002+08:00

My life is full of unending work....ECONS...srsly..i hate econs.......

2009-08-13T19:14:00.001+08:00

wtf wtf wtf!!! HEADACHE!!!BODY ACHE!!!M I RECOVERING????HAIXX....

2009-08-13T08:35:00.002+08:00

my life is just a dream...and all my dreams just reveal my mind..lol...i just woke up a few minutes ago but the dream has put mi into thinking....who is e gal??LOL!!!okay..srsly,i only could remb wad had happended but i realli couldnt remb who was e gal-.-...aiyooooo.....okay..the place tat e story takes place is my home town.. in china...i went to e hospital near my house...in e hospital i saw e gal...but who's e gal?i have no idea..ok..den i dunnoe why i fall for her..i cant remb..lol..but she has some illness..den i wan to bring her to my nearby shopping center...e 1 i always go..so when we step out of e hospital...we realise it's snowing...lol..den suddenly i saw my uncle and my cousin in law 's mother cycling toward us..lol...so we decide to choose some other way..on e way to shopping center, i have intro her to my house,my ah ma house and all my relatives..and i oso dunnoe why they appear...and i even know my ah ma and ah gong pass away...den suddenly...my stupid dad....e stupid TV....and i woke up...LOL..but who's e gal???and why snow????and....ok...

2009-08-11T18:58:00.001+08:00

FEVER!!!HIGH FEVER=.='''OMG..I M DYINGGGGG....arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2009-08-05T01:59:00.001+08:00

i feel so useless....:(

2009-08-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

Life is getting more and more tired...I hate JC life.. I miss my friends...the time when jasmine and meryl sing retarded songs behind mi....and i play poker card with weisiang ,kah qi,ziyi etc etc..the time when we make fun on e teachers...the time when we skip school and jump over e fences...all of these will nv come back..Life is just like a performance.. you only have one chance...Last time i still hope my sec life faster end ,so that i could have e "wonderful" JC life..now i realise i m wrong..i m so wrong.. NOW i m looking forward to my uni life..will i repeat e same mistake that actually UNi is much more boring??haha..i dunnoe..but that's life...Life is sooooo unpredictable...

2009-07-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

FUCK..i HATE PW SRSLY....WHAT IS THIS MAN!!!I have training on fri..AND after tat they wan overnight PW..DEN NXT MORNING I HAVE TO GO TRAINING AGAIN...PLS...I think they dunnoe how tired my trainings are...none of them come from sports cca and obviously they tot sports cca is like band...SO TIRING...haix...4IT!!!I miss you...WHY EVERYTHING must be fair???DO U HAVE TO CONSIDER ABT EFFICIENCY???WHAT IS THIS???1 PERSON WROTE WR AND 4 PPL STARE AT HER/HIM FOR FREAKING CB FEWS HOURS????YA RIGHT...HAIX....

2009-07-27T15:47:00.002+08:00

If i wan to take medicine in university-.-, i have to study for 8 yrs...OMG..tat's very long ...by e time i finish my study, i m alr like 28 yrs old...WTH....Who knows if e study is so busy that i dun even have time to find gf...OMG..if i m 28 yet i m single..my life is miserable :'(...

On e other hand, the campus of US uni is like heaven??LOL...i see pictures of snow..okay..i have decided that no matter wad happen..i wun stay in singapore...i love changes.....

2009-07-22T21:33:00.001+08:00

LOL...i realise my life is packed with trainings..HAHAHAH.. i m srsly no life..and i have no time for wooing gals too :'( ...NVM..jianyu,we shall remain single !!!haha...

ASHLEY CHEW.. I NV LOOK DOWN ON U LAH-.-

2009-07-21T20:52:00.003+08:00

okay..time to set targeeeet.....

i am not ambitious..but i have to meet certain standard..i hate being look down coz i feel sad..

GP:D above
Chem: high A
Phy :Hihg A
Maths :Ultra high A
Econs: B above..

i will try my best to fulfill my target:D...and I will improve my tennis-.-...

2009-07-17T22:08:00.003+08:00

I like bimbos....
HAHA,i oso dunnoe why=.=... i just think bimbos are ratehr cute and can attract mi..LOL

CRITERIA FOR BIMBO
1. pretty or avg looking
2. stupid(not academic stupid..but doing a lot stupid stuff)
3. blurr
4.hyper -active
5. decent
6.BIMBO think MOST OF E PPL ARE NICE=.=..which is damn stupid..haha
7.to be continued

LOL!!!haha..okay..enddddddd

2009-07-09T16:50:00.003+08:00

1General Paper H1 36 S 475 31%
2Mathematics H2 82.1 50 92%
3Physics H2 77 A 34 90%
4Chemistry H2 73 A 7 99%
5 Economics H2 23.9 U 410 21%

i m satisfied with my chem and i accept my econs....i dun realli happy wif my maths and phy...my maths result is way below my normal standard...haix but at least it is a A..but i still hope i can get 90...haixxxxx

and PHY...i nid to memorise all e definitions..i nv memorise a single definition..so i lost all e definition marks ...nvm..i will study for promos coz i dun realli study for jcts...i think i only use 20% energy for JCTs...

2009-07-07T19:28:00.002+08:00

YEAHHHH!!exams are finally over and i can play tennis now...LOL..ok..i think my exam is neither perfect nor screwed..but the papers are not easy perhapss...lets wait and see howe much i can score..HAHA,i have no stress at all coz i am not e top 1 in classsss..MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...okay...i will write all my marks of my papers when i receive themmm...HEEXHEEEEEE

today i watch transformers with kq and kok..haha,MF is zzzz hot=.= omg.....ok..but i think her face cant make itzzzz...okay...i shall end this post!!!tml i will play tennis in school XD!

2009-07-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

光棍

每天都伸着懒腰大摇大摆的享受

这春暖花开多潇洒

为感情繁琐那太傻

乘着风满世界嘻嘻哈哈的乱逛

有太多新奇等我逍遥啊

天知道寂寞什么滋味

乘着风满世界嘻嘻哈哈的乱逛

有太多新奇等着我逍遥啊

天知道寂寞什么滋味我先开心

其他的事想它干嘛

我以为我就是自由自在的一个人

为什么我一天没见到你就焦躁难忍

我怎么变得这么蠢

我以为我就是这样快乐的光棍

却为何老是拼命跟自己斗气较真

才发现我已经爱上你……

2009-07-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

i was talking to kq just now about our sec school life..OMG, it's damn fun...haixx...what had gone will nv be backed...=.= i miss 4 IT....it is e best clz i have ever stayed in.. all e gals are so high and funny...they can take wadeva harsh jokes man..coz they know we dun mean it...lol...i bet IF i use e way i suan yb to suan some gal in my clz...tat gal will nv talk to mi again...lol..and we play poker card whenver it is possible and they are all so funny-.-...ok,i shall stop whining...no maatter wad,life still goes on..this is wad i learn a few mths ago...XD..

2009-07-01T19:34:00.002+08:00

damn irritatedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

2009-06-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

答应不爱你

by-郑中基

明明爱很清晰却又接受分离

我只剩思念的权利

难过还来不及爱早已融入呼吸

不存在的存在心底

虽然很努力练习着忘记

我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你

真的对不起答应了你不再爱你

我却还没答应我自己

明明爱很清晰却要接受分离

我只剩思念的权利

难过还来不及就让爱融入空气

不存在的存在心底

说好要忘记偏偏又想起

原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你

真的对不起虽然曾经答应了你[

我却还没答应我自己

却又如何真的不爱你

一首平凡的歌，一段平凡的歌词，但它的每个字都触动着我的心。。。哈哈，我也不知道我怎么了。。从何说起？？爱情。。。只不过让人变得更加迷茫。。。并不是你付出努力，就会得到回报。。有些人有缘无份，有些人无缘亦无份。。哎。。人海茫茫。。想找到她很难，两情相悦更难。。。。哎。。。。

2009-06-22T09:24:00.002+08:00

Last week i have done nth except for tennis training and study=.=omg...i should use elain's term to describe myself,"no-lifer"..lol, we have a tennis outing on sat after training to cele keewen and andrew bday..we went to card board game cafe ..lol,it's damn funny...sabrina was crazy bimbo -.-...lol,after playing e snatching game, i have erm,10 scrathes on my hands...LOLLL...haha..

I WANT 1 MORE WEEK OF HOLIDAY!!I WANT TO BUY NEW CLOTHES!!I WANT TO BUY NEW EARRINGS!!!I WANT TO IMPROVE TENNIS!!I WANT TO DO WELL FOR JCTS...

wa-.-i have so many wishes..LOLLLLLL

2009-06-15T14:06:00.003+08:00

Life is unpredictable.I agree with this statement once again.i have heard 1 stunning thing ytd which is my cousin start relationship wif *******(ps,i cant even rmb his name)

actually,i m ok wif tat,i dun realli care who she stead wif, but as long as he is a good 1,i m fine wif tat..but e prob is if he is a good guy..i have no ideas at all....perhaps i dun realli give it a damn...okay, non of my business..wad can i say abt tat?? i dun like her JC frens.. all bitches ...but since tat is her chioce,i shall not comment much.. they are so freaking lame.. they form a clique called 公主帮?wad is tat pls??? now is 21st century plsss...dun be so childish pls??

and she is like having so much life in june holiday..she almost go out everyday?wow, even enjoy more than mi, amazingggg...yet she claims she has no time to study.. simply get lost pls??i have time to PLAY but i have no tiem to study.. and keep irritating my dad and mi..omg...nvm, she is lucky ..she doesnt have to study hard to get a good result..but i dun think she is smart.yeah....i m just like a beee.i have to work triple harder to achieve wad ppl can achieve easily..nvm,tats my life..i m fine wif tat..okay...

her bf,whoever he is,nvm, if he ever bullies her ,den tats e time i shall go slap him upside and down.now i shall just keep quiet~~~~~

and gf isnt important to mi now...haha,a dead heart will not open to any1..LOL...

2009-06-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

ok now,i shd talk about chalet!!!!ok,e chalet was awesome.haha,it was like so fun to wif all my good frens, we could talk wadeva we wanted to tok!!drink,mah jong,poker ,"raping", "looking at gals"..haha, we did all e stupid stuffs!!!!LOLLL,tao have uploaded e photoes in facebook,so i shdnt post them again!!LOL..and i saw so many ppl like floor ball ppl(yanlin and jolin)...LOL..AND MOST IMPORTANTLY IS VJ GALS ARE DAMN HOT..LOL,especially e 1 wear e hot pink short..OMG...XD..i m drunk on e last night of chalet and i think i did some stupid stuff to yanlin ..haha.nvm lah..LOL

and my holiday is packed wif tennis..i have 4 trgs per week.wow!tats so cool..but i m demoralised now..i have been losing throughout e training,haizzzzz,emo alr....when can i start to win???-.-''now i have to squeeze time to study for JCT...zzzz..actually i dun feel like studying but i have no chioce!!okay time to go settle my GP STUFF...

THE END!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

i haven been updating for some time coz i m realli busy-.-''

okay,FIRSTLY,this post is dedicate to AH POLE(require by her)...

LOL....we went to kbox on 5th june,actually i din intend to go kbox in first place, i just wanted her to accompany mi to get some tuition stuff-.-'' in e end,i bought nth den we got so tempted and just decided to go to kbox and sing wildly...lol..okay,my singing deproved,from bad to worse..LOL..haha.and ah pole was still as skinny as b4..i shld call her TOOTHPICK..lol..haha.

THE END!

2009-06-07T08:50:00.002+08:00

June holiday is such a busy holiday...okay, i can say this is e busiest holiday in my life..why???becoz i have pdp...LOL,although i have enjoyed myself,i have to manage my time well,i nid time to study..my holiday will be ended on tue-.-then i have to pull up my socks...hahaha,there are quite a few things happen last week.

I went to kohahahaha house for our 4IT gathering!!OMG,that was fantastic??????i saw all my frens!!!the TFF was still as crazy as usual-.-'',they were doing all sort of stupid stuffs!!haha..FINALLY,i could speak chinese as much as i wan,HAHAHA...we have took a lot of photoes,but they were all not wif mi,too bad,i couldnt upload..haha

mon is clz cip!!!i learnt e stupid dance...zzzz,omg,i srsly just cant dance ...i dunnoe why my brain and limps couldnt coordinate well..lol,the KIDS are just super super super super adorable!!omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg,i wan KIDS!!!!!i wan 4!!!!!!or maybe more???hahaha,omg i cant stand them,although some are weird,they are still CUTE!!!..hahahaha

later i will be going all GUYS chalet,wad a pathetic chalet ,hahaha,nvm,they are all my brothers!!wohoooooo,i hope i will be posting photo after e chalet!!

2009-05-28T00:25:00.001+08:00

YEAHH!!!! I HAVE FINALLY BOUGHT MY DEAR RACQUET!!!LOL,I M SO TEMPTED TO PLAY TML!!!!OMGGGG..HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-05-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

1st

2nd

3rd

4th

5th

2009-05-26T21:31:00.002+08:00

i went to band concert last sattt wif my dearest ex-intergritians,LOL...the band concert is awesome despite e first few boring music..haha,the drama was fantastic becoz of darryn and stepheny,lollll..it was damn damn funny can!!!den the last 2 pieces were nice too!!!!!!!1 of them was e song from enchanted..omg,sooooo soooo damn damn damn sweet ...

sun was a boring day as usual..i was packed with tennis trainig-.-..i was scolded by e coach AGAIN!!just becoz i have made a minor mistake..omg-.-..lol,den after tat i watched roland open at night..Murray has trashed e oppo..lol

i dun feel like going school on mon

and i had a freak diarrhea in e morning ytd...yeah,so i rested at home and visited a doc..when was last time i went to see doc???i couldnt rmb..yeah,i tot i was alright ,so i decdied to went to tennis training,coz it was e last training for senior and my recrea trg,so it was sort of memorable...say good bye to e slacking training..hah..

den i ate cai tou gui at night..when i reached home..my freaking diarrhea came to mi again-.-..so i faster went to slp..den this morning,i was walking to MRT ...den i had to go e toilet for liek 6 times??and i realli couldnt tahan,so i decided to go home and rest...and now ...i had no mood to study...LOLLLL,okay,i m sort of hopelesss..hahaha..

sianzz,i wan to have a rest during holiday D: school was getting boring-.-...den yiyang has booked mi to study wif him and teach him ..haix, sianzz.. i have no passion in study srsly..coz there are too many things bothering mi ....but frens...ha,so i have no chioce..yeah..holiday is coming,but is it realli called HOLIDAY????yeah,singapore sux

i m realli tempted to get my new racquet and equipment asap!!!!!

which 1 will be a beta choice"?????

BABOLAT AEROPRO DRIVE???

PRINCE REBEL????

omg,nadal,u are my idol...LOLLL

2009-05-21T22:02:00.003+08:00

I m very busy recently...lol,i cant rmb what have happened everyday...the only thing i rmb is i play tennis just now..lolll,okay,i m just crapping...haha,a lot of tests have been given back recently and i m not realli satisfied with e results,LOL...i dun realli care about e marks,but i m irritated coz i make a lot of careless errors,lol...for eg,there is 1mcq in my chem test..i know ans is carbon dioxide but i dunnoe why i put down hydrogen...LOL, so retarded...

OH YA,I have a good time laughing today...OMG,for e first time, i have done what a assist cg rep shd be doing,i collect ezlink cards for whole clz..HAHA,heexheex,my main aim is the photoes...OMG -.-i saw 2 stunning photoes...1 is yanlin's and e other 1 is elain's...srsly...yanlin 1 is like wth????last time she look better ,haha,jkjk...Elain 1 is worse..look like some "rabbit" aunty..LOL...no wonder she dun let mi see last time-.-''''''''''haha..dotzz..

tennis is fun ,haha,fun,haha...LOL...i wan play more so that i could improve and catch up the school team ppl-.-....i hope i dun neglect my school work...LOL

LASTLY...MY NAME HAS OFFICIALLY CHANGE TO NAFAEL YAO..LOLLLLL

2009-05-18T20:28:00.001+08:00

OMG!!HIGHLIGHTS OF TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE GOT INTO TENNIS SCHOOL TEAM!!!!OMG,I M DAMN FREAKING HAPPY!!NOW MY TARGET IS MAIN 7!!!!I WAN SINGLE!!!!

2009-05-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

edward has come back today-.-..omg ..i m so jealous of him coz of his freaking long hairrr....WTH ...i m regret for staying in singapore to finish A lvl..i shd go oversea and now my hair will be longer!!!haha,mrs kohahaha is damn happy noww...LOL,okay,i m freaking tireddddd and i shall go slp-.-i still have to complete e GPP by tmr .. LASTLY

WELCOME BACK EDWARD!!!

2009-05-11T17:29:00.005+08:00

MY POOR HAND!!!!

LOL>>>KOK and KQ

EWWWWWWWWWWW

LOL

We went have havel seoul garden on sat...haha...Kok decided to treat us becoz of his bday!!!is it becoming a trend that bday boy has to treat ??lol...JJ starts it..see lahhh....it's all ur fault..LOLLL..so since kok is treating us,den we have to buy a so called" expensive " presents..in e end,we bought some cheap stuffs..so sry..fishy kok!!..lol..

tennis is getting more and more fun..but ...my hand isnt at good status..haixxx.i cant play well ...coz my hand is super pain..den i use tiger balm to warp my hand..it's like some bandage!LOL...

Life is getting tougher but in another sense,it's getting more and more fun...although TJC sux,not all ppl sux..haha,yi xuan is cuteeee,jianyu is retarded,leslie is "dunnoe?"LOL...aki is childish like hell..cliffy is super lame...e lamest guy i have ever met..according to joy,LAMO!lol..darryn is gay??haha,no lah..cry boyyyy...hahaaaa!

TENNIS roxxxx,and i realli hope i can get into e school team!SO i can change racquet ,and buy a tennis bag pack!haha,and e cool bandana which is worn by NADALLLLL...LOL..

2009-05-06T20:59:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!i m srsly in love with this cool racquet!!!!the yellow colour is srsly damn cool!!!i hope i can get into team asap and i will change to this freaking racuqet!!!

2009-05-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

okay,i have no time to blog!!coz i m busy with tennis...i m training hard to get into e school team!omg..i m in love with tennis!!yeah..many things happen..and i manage to make a few good fren in tennis!!haha,they are funny and nice...lastly ,tao!!,dun be so sad...okay??LOL...although i have no right to tell u tat,coz i m down for a freaking 2 weeks..lol..okay..time flies and edward is coming back..ok,i wan to see his freaking long hair-.-..jealous ..if he keep teasing mi,i will cut for him XD!!later wj slaps mi..k,i have to study..bbbbbb

2009-04-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

OMG!!I am as busy as some idiots...LOL...i am aiming for tennis schoolteam, so i have a lot of self traning session!LOL,haha,i have made a few good tennis frens,ya ,that is very cool...heexheex...I m very busy...busy...

my econs tcher sux...ya..totally sux...i will state e reasons in my nxt post..okay,time to study..bb!!

2009-04-26T13:13:00.004+08:00

wohooo,my new HP!!!!!hehe,i have been waiting for this phone for almost 4 mths..omg...Passionate red + black is realli realli damn coolll..and u know wad??the phone isnt lag at all...lol..i have been using lag phone for past few years, and i m fed up with it...i dun nid all those functions...as long as i can msg,call ,that's more than enough!!wohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, now i shall put a few more photos of joy performance..

retarded yd....look tall..lol

2009-04-25T09:54:00.003+08:00

i dun have enough time to blogg...ya..this is a boring week as usual..lol..thursday i went to AJ to find ws..lol..i felt very weird when i went into AJ,as i m the only 1 wif e Fe2+ ion uniform..lol..ytd,yb and i cele bday for him..actualy it is not consider a celebration..ok,i m too lazy to blog..later i m gg to play tennis wif yx,leslie they all..haha,here are some photoes of joy performance!

2009-04-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

i havent been blogging for a few days..coz i m realli busy..wad shd i say?erm,i m trying to keep myself occupy-.-''realli occupied..we watch joy performance on fri,it's realli a wow~...and some realli cool things happen..haha...joy's acting skill isnt bad ..i think she is qutie talented in this area..after tat,we went to have dinner wif kq,yd,nicole and ze..i almost starved to death sia...after supper,we took taxi home except for yd..ya..i pay e whole bill-.-''lol..nvm~at least ,i m happy tat day..okay..econs sux..tjc sux...ya..jc life is srsly sux...-.-''how to enjoy my jc life..pls tell mizzzz

2009-04-14T23:04:00.002+08:00

okay..i m officially settled everything,yeah..i feel much relieveed now..ya..9 days after 5th apr..i m officially going to start to turn on my mugger engine..ya..mugger engine,although it is not as strong as last yr, i wun be as slack as past few mths-.-''...PI is killing mi,so does GPP..wth...we are nt generating ANY IDEA..ya..so i decide to change my PI and i m going to skip school tmr...coz i wan to get everything done..and i can come out with a so called perfect Pi and my grp can use..LOL..

OKay,my grandparents have super high expectation on mi,ya,so i have a lot burdens and i have to work hard..haix,ya..i will work hard..and i wan to get into tennis school team!!!!yes..yinuo,u can do it!!!

SMILE!!!!XD,XD,XD!!tml will be a better day..yeah!!!i m more matured!

2009-04-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

时间不会治疗伤口...小小的幸福在哪里？

断了的弦再怎么连

我的感觉你已听不见

你的转变像断掉的弦

再怎么接音都不对

你的改变我能够分辨

我沉默你的话也不多

我们之间少了什么不说

2009-04-11T16:44:00.003+08:00

haix...everyday u get to know a truth and every truth strikes you..how do u feel??ya,tat's wad is going on in my recent life..

when i havent even realised my "great" happiness,all of my small happiness are gone as if they grow a pair of strong wind and fly away asap..handsome suit is a nice movie...face isnt everything. it's the heart that matters e most..ya right...

i hate going school..ya,i realli hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate x 100000times..haix..when can it be settled..?I m enough of this crap...i know i suck but this shdnt be e way..haix..

time will nv heal..coz b4 healing, the wound will be infected and u will just die of e infection...Or in another case,b4 healing, ppl will use knife and cut it again and again, and u will just die of excessive blood loss..ya..tat's life..wad can i do?can i choose to quit school?? I m nt hurt coz of tat day..it's everything after tat..haix..i dunnoe..i doubt if my heart still resembles e heart shape after thousands times of slashes..

every1 is busy with school and here i m wasting my time..haix..i wan to drink again...only drunk will get mi out of this saddening stuffs..but i cant possibly continue to be like tat..i nid to adjust myself and get to work again..but when can i finish adjusting myself??

now i know what is heart pain...it's really pain..when u think of sth,a sudden pain just strikes ur heart..i tot i have heart atk...ya...i m realli having heart pain everyday...it shdnt be like tat..realli..i dunnoe wad i can do now...coz i m just a transparent person...wow,tats realli cool,i become fantastic four...haix...

I m nth..nonono,i m sth,i m a piece of sht..ya..tat's e conclusion i get these few days...it's a luxurious for mi to even get a fren now...ya..frens..i cant even make a fren...wad is this man???Buddha isnt fair at all...i have nth..i have no look,no brain..now i dun even have e chacne to get fren..haha..ya..i suckf

2009-04-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

不要只注意大大的幸福，身边小小的幸福更值得珍惜

2009-04-10T08:20:00.002+08:00

ytd we celebrate kq bday..ya,he is 17 now..but i am still older..loll..we have steamboat at TIAN TIAN..ew..it sucks srsly..i eat very little veges..lol.fine,i m a monk..Sry kq,i promise i will be happy for ytd,at least ytd,but i fail to do..pssss...den after tat we take bus ride to east coast and drink a bit..ya..i realise all of us have a lot problems..i m not e worst yet i m not e best among us..ya..i think i shd be 1 of e worst..tao emo all e way..and we were just voicing out..haix..life sucks..i srsly feel like quitting school...i go school learn nth yet i have to torture myself..transparent..non-exisiting..ya..k..time to study ..i must finish e gp compo..later mrs khan kill mi how?? D:

So wad can i do now???haix...:(

2009-04-08T17:15:00.003+08:00

i go to school today..but sianz..i cant concentrate at all..now i have to read up everything myself..its like..wth..den Mr hsu keep suaning mi..although i feel nth abt his suan..haix.still cant go back to normal..dunnoe when i can go back to normal..den after civics.i decide to pon contact with kq..and den i pangseh them and eat wif kq....after tat when i on bus,i msg her to ask her help mi fake attendance..den she tell mi today no contact time..ya..i pon contact time-.-..

today we are toking abt self esteem..ha,wads abt my self esteem..ya,i doubt if i have any self esteem left after countless things happen..Yun ting still say "i used to be so confidence"...ya..tats like a few yrs back..now,i wonder if i m realli a high self esteem person?I think i have nth..no look,no brain and no luck...i have nth tat is needed to boost self esteem..

tats life man...my frens are telling mi after all e problems,my life will be much happier coz there will be alot happy things happening..but i dun see any happy things happen around mi even after i have been through so many sad things???dun tell mi the sad things i have been through still not enough..

I am nobody and insignificant...

2009-04-07T20:54:00.001+08:00

lol..i manage to concentrate for 30mins..wow..great improvement i guess-.-

2009-04-07T19:20:00.001+08:00

yinuo..u shall concentrate now...study...ya...study...ya...study...yaa.....zzzzzzz

2009-04-07T09:11:00.002+08:00

i m officially pon school the 3rd day..ya...including last fri and weekend..i havent been going school for 5 days..ha..wad a long break it is..but i wud rather i dun have e break...Life isnt going smoothly...it just like a clock..when 1 of e cogs is stucked,everything will be stucked...there are just too many things happen..i dunnoe since when i become so weak..i cant take it anymore..at least,i know my frens better...especially tat 3 assholes..lol..1 phone call,all come ...and yt i think ur scolding has some effect on mi.."u are good,just ppl din see ur good pts"..lol..although i still cant find my good pts,thx for giving mi confidence..ya,at least u can see my good pts ,although i dunnoe wad they are..maybe i shd let time to tell mi..haha..haix..today is 3rd day for him..everything will be just ended...he has alr become ash..all e past has became memories...i regret..regret for everything..human is just weird creature..only realise when lost..ya,tat is human being..i m just too down..i cant do anything except for stoning..ya,i suck...Life is so unpredictable..some1 told mi this b4..ya,life is unpredictable..although we must look at e bright side.when all e bad things happen to u,i dunnoe how to look at e bright side..

Wad if i have a time machine..i hope i can just go back to e past..in e past,i dun have any troubles, i m always happy wif my grandparents and every1..i dun have to think a lot and i dun have to plan for my future..ya,future...haha,life is realli unpredictable...who knows abt my future..10 yrs down e road..when u go to e bugis temple pray,maybe i m just inside..sweeping e floor..haha..

i dunnoe how to get up.."you used to be so strong"...ya,i m used to be strong..but sry,yt..i know its hurting,frens only come after tat and my family..now i fall down for both,i dunnoe how to be strong..how to get up..how i wish sum1 just come and slap mi..slap mi upside and down..slap mi left and right..slap mi front and back..so i can just wake up..

tml,no matter wad,i must go to school..haix...i must put on another mask..a happy mask...when can i show my true face infront of ppl??i miss IT where i can suan ppl all i wan and no1 cares..and they just suan mi back...no wonder,ppl say sec school clz is always e best..see..another eg of realising after losing...this is super ironical..hahaa

ze hui..thx for crying for mi..although i dunnoe wad e pts of u crying when i nv cry-.-...

haha..no matter how much stuff i lost..luckily,i still have bunches of idiot frens around..

tml will be a beta day although life is unpredictable....unpredictable...unpredictable...

2009-04-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

人生就是这样，当你运气不好的时候，所有的坏事接踵而来，挡也挡不住。我累了，真的，真的，很累了。。。老天对我真的公平吗？仔细回想，我这个人生开心的事情寥寥无几，无论学业或感情。谈到学业，每次一到重要的考试，我必定名落孙山，小学是如此，中学亦是如此。如果谈到感情，哈哈，那就更可悲了，我好像是全世界最垃圾的男人。以前，我曾听过一句话“虽然我很丑，但是我很温柔。”哈哈，骗话，笑话。。无论你信与否，长相的的确确是需要的。原来，睡觉是我唯一的避风港。现在，哈哈，我连做梦都在折磨着自己，一个漫长的夜晚，无尽的折磨。。唉，好无聊啊，今年应该是我人生比较悲惨的一年吧。。算了，向前看。。如果我可以的话。。

爷爷。。。呵呵，小时候的事情历历在目，好快啊，自从奶奶离开，4年了。。如今，你也。我难受，心痛，但是我又能如何呢。。唉。。我的人生好像黑白色了。。没有任何开心的事情，头好痛啊。。谁来救救我。。:(

2009-04-05T15:59:00.004+08:00

死结 by 李玖哲(Nicky Lee)

离不开的却离开

抓不住想抓的爱

怪自己活该

我的未来你不来

我的故事很无奈

我注定失败

我们的对话

你悄悄离了线

我们的热线

今后断了线

你在山的那边

那么遥远

你说再见

宣判了终点

你在我心里面

打了死结

绑住孤单

在我的世界

你带走的快乐

我没了知觉

一个人面对每个日夜

你在我心里打了死结

绑住孤单在我的世界

找不到你的我已失去一切

我们的爱已无法脱险

你打了死结

无心伤害却伤害

空白以后才明白

原来这是爱

你的心我最能猜

你的爱我被淘汰

我注定悲哀

nice song..haix..i manage to concentrate for 15mins...wow.tats a great improvement...

2009-04-05T14:27:00.002+08:00

i went to temple just now...sianzzz...i still cmi....my parents asked mi why my face like so black..i just ignore them...dun feel like toking to them..den i go qiu qian..although it is a good 1,i dun see any hope..lol..okay..time to sign off..hopefully,i can concentrate to study for half an hour...ya...i cant concentrate at all...not even 10 mins....gg

2009-04-05T08:15:00.001+08:00

:( bad dream..haixxx

2009-04-04T16:29:00.005+08:00

thx bro...
thx for coming ytd and console mi
you all tell mi dont be jian
but i m just a jian nan ren..
so nvm...i m used to all these
ya,there is always a slot in bugis temple for mi to be monk -.-yeahhhh

To kaka:thx for coming to find mi after tiring bball trg
To Tao:although ur mum keep calling u and scolding u,u will stay wif mi
To yd:damn touched lah..watching movie wif gf half way den abandon her and taxi to find us-.-

wa...i only manage to sleep 2+ hr last night..and yet i have to cycle 16km today...the dualathon is awesome-.-sry ziyi-.-..i know i cycle damn slow..but u run so imba..lol..

M08+..XD(sry ziyi 1 more time)

-.-..女人是用来疼的，女人任性没有关系。。因为我很贱

i shd keep myself occpied..haix

2009-04-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

okay...today i went back to CCH to take O cert wif jasmine=.=...ya..she is still as skinny as a pole..okay,wad i can say abt her is she is still funny...lol...damn stupid...first thing she saw mi is to laugh at my hair, say i become more and more nerdy...2nd thing is "yinuo,why u become so skinny"...XD..stressed...after tat i saw my chem teacher..she is srsly super nice..and first time she saw mi is "yinuo..why u so skinny"....

M i tat skinny-.-....okay..finee

B4 going back to CCH,i went to ECP alone...ya...i have sth in mind..and i like to look at e sea..ya, i feel much better after going to ECP..oaky lah..i guessed i m much better now..-.-

den i go back TJ at 5pm...i met kq in lib..he was wif amelia again-.-..lol..okay..if ppl say they are tgt,i m nt surprised...lol..den ZY came tj..omg,i so excited lah...1 of my best fren man..haha,we are crapping all along..

we went to field and watch Taekwando trg..lol..it seems to be stupid..i laugh uncontrollably-.-...although i have alr tried my best to control..haha,saw her trg oso..she is doing some lame stuff like kicking soil..and ZY cant stop laughing..lol,and she run srsly fast compared to e ohter gal..maybe this is call "food power"??

haix...i wan to be myself in school..but most of e ppl cant accept my character..coz i m always being sarcastic..actually,i mean nth..i dun like to praise ppl coz it sounds fake..i miss 4IT!!!!...sianz...i think my bday will be screwed again..630 end...after dinner...730..wad can i do within 1.5h...if they drag somemore..1h left..wad can i do???haix...my plan...nvm..life is unpredictable i guess...

nice scenario..l like it^^

2009-04-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

okay...finally i m done with my PI...i think my pi sux but at least i m able to complete it..lessons,as usual, are boring..Ah Hsu is crazy..he suan mi like i m a posterior..lol..During GP,i forget how we come to talk about birth weight..

ah hsu: yinuo..(look at mi), i think ur mum sure have difficulties to give birth to u,coz ...
mi:zzzzzz

den whole clz laugh..lol...okay lah,i dun mind all those sarcasm, coz i m used to it..ya,my head is big..so wad...lol..i m ugly.. so wad-.-...When u accept the truth, u wun feel anything alr...lol,today i did a test if u are good at chasing gal-.-...sianz...i m a pro helper,means i m super good at teaching ppl ...but when it comes to myself..i sux..lol,okay,no more marriage for mi...i shall be monk.XD..i think bugis temple there still got slot for mi..haha...sry mum,dun kill mi-.-...okay i shall go study a while..i have been doing PI since 5pm...haven touched on any schoolwork..

yinuo..calm down..get ur mugger engine start working..

and sry to u..now i think back..i m just too selfish...cre8 troubles for u...ya..

2009-03-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

today,as usual,is totally useless...i learnt nth from e teacher..how i wish that i could just quit school and self study at home myself..den i dun have to obey all e stupid rules which restrict my wild imagination...ya..

i realise i m getting quieter and quieter in school hours..except for GP,coz i have no chioce but tok,or else he will be frustrated again and started to scold us...loll...the most noiest guy in CCH become quieter..how unbelievable it is..whenever i tell my frens,they will say"ya right"...lol..i dunnoe,i cant realli get into my clz somehow...maybe they are eng speaking???or wadeva..somehow i realise we dun share the same hobbies,like basketball,Kbox,etc....

ya,after school,we suppose to go to opposite hawker to eat..den when huiting and yanlin decide to eat in school,she also gives up e idea of eating outside...ya,so i sit down and just be quiet to wait for her..coz she was engaging a convo wif huiting and yanlin they all..and i dunnoe wad to tok..i dunnoe how to joke wif them after tat day,ya,so i shall just keep quiet..lol..after tat,we take bus home and she dun even know wad bus she is taking=.=...omg sia..

tennis trg is cool anw...i m improving and i m aiming for school team ,wohooo...the coach give mi more helps than e others,haha,maybe he thinks tat i have more potential perhaps..lol...just kidding..haha,and at e end of trg,he tell mi " u are much better",wow i damn shuang can!!!

i just realise my ego drops like crazy...my fren all say i become a guy w/o ego...or pessimistic...ya,although i din realise..will i still be a high ego guy after hearing wad nicole comment abt mi last time?perhaps,i wont..haha,but being low ego,i think it will be much better,at least,ppl wun say u are arrogant and u wun think too much when e gal did "special" things to u..haha..

i think i am crapping a lot..i shall end here..ya..tml is a long day .. i feel like poning..lol..coz i will end up learn nth..JC lecture is srsly useless...anw

I CANT BELIEVE I M TURNING 18..WOW.TIME REALLI FLIES....I STILL CAN RMB I COME S'PORE WHEN I WAS 12..THE DORAEMON WIF MCDONALD'S UNCLE FOOT SIZE..LOL..YA...I M LOOKING FORWARD TO MY BDAY..XD

2009-03-29T20:57:00.002+08:00

there is something happen last time... i went to jog at night and when i came back,i saw one pair of "unknown shoes" in front of my doorstep,i was stunned,so i went in and shouted at my cousin to check if any1 broke in...den she heard mi wrongly and she tot there was some1 break in,so she ran out of e house and went to floor 1...ya,den i followed her ,leaving the door unlocked...den we called my parents and my dad ran back from eastpoint..in e end,i realised that the pairs of shoes was his..omg.tat is like damn malu pls...

and sun ,as usual, is a boring day...i do nth but slp to recharge myself..and amazingly,i have changed 3 ideas for my PI..wapiang,i still cant make up my mind..HOWWWW...zzzz..nvmm...lol..i srsly hate my hp..i hate all of e touch screens coz my fingers are soooo big that i couldnt press correctly...walao,when will e hp be launched sia...i want to change asap..and her hp is equally bad..most of e button are not functioning..relax..lol..

shall i jog later???or just slack at home...

yeah,fianlly, i m turning 18 in a few days time..finally,i can buy wine~~wohooo..actually i hate e feeling of drunk..lol..XD!!!

2009-03-28T16:21:00.004+08:00

ytd we cele kaka's bday at ecp..i think i m drunk but actually i m not..just tat i m a bit high..and i was like counting e no. of stars..lol..and i 4get everything tat happens after tat..erm..e only thing i rmb is i call her millions times..omg,i m so sryy...loll..actually i have nth important.just tat a lot stars in e sky..lol..even if i have sth important,i wun be rmb..ya,i think i drink around 5 bottles of beer?or maybe lesser than tat..okay,i know we are crazy...LOL..i srsly like my xiong di..now den i know how good my upper sec life in cch was...sianz.tjc is realli boring..diff to find ppl tat share same hobby as mi..like basketball,shopping,playing pool and crapping..sianzzz....nvm..

e TOP interview is just a crap..the teachers aask us all the stupid question..i was like wth lah..and the gal copys my ans =.=...wapiang leh..ah ben was stoning throughout sia...

teacher:ah ben,u haven been spkeak anything.
ah ben:oh...(after 3s),oh(after another 3 s)..

LOL,ah ben is srsly damn funnyy...

after interview,we went to bugis and study at macs for a while=.=...den we went to eat NAN XIANG MAN TOU DIAN,okay,i shall say i love the vege bao..she say i eat damn little..lol...but okay lah,i mquite full anw..but e stupid shop dun acccept nets,so i have to walk all the way mrt and withdraw $$..lol,okay,i know tats sound stupid..

anw,i found out a fact from my tuition tchr..principal of tjc sux to e hell...she ask a student to write a 5000 words report just becoz she have tuition outside??wth is this...she is F retarded...ask e tchr in tjc TLLM,see...now tjc result sux.....sianz..my bday is occupied by e ass sport day=.='''nvm i shall bring a loudspeaker to cheer for ah ben..lol..XD

OH ya...anw.. i have finally bought a SINGLET which cost mi 40 bucks...den i realise i dun have pants tat i shd wear tgt wif single..WTH..LOL..i shall get my ah beng jacket asap and some polo tees...my teess are getting smaller and smallett..LOL

haixx

2009-03-27T17:09:00.002+08:00

i dunnoe wad happen to mi...srsly,human's wants are unlimited..when u have this,u will expect tat...i tot i wun..i m retarded sumhow...i shdnt expect much wif my tiao2 jian4.its damn obvious actually..ya ,so...okay...haixx...yinuo..go back to e original 1 lah...go back to tat heartless man!!...ok yeah..study is e most important..haix..

2009-03-26T19:59:00.001+08:00

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

i just came to listen to this song again and e lyrics srsly inspired mi a lot...

haix...dunnoe wad happen..kinda down...

2009-03-25T16:27:00.003+08:00

I realise tat i nid a place to voice out...so i have picked up my blog again..lol,okay,it has been damn long since i have posted last time..let mi countt.ermmm,1 yr and ??? mths..LOL..haha,what shd i start with???erm,i have grown a lot since my last post..lol,maybe i become from bad to worse??or more stupid.. i dunnoe..i shall leave this for other ppl to comment ..^^JC life is srsly suxx ..maybe i m just not used to a mugger school ..although i study,i will also play.However,in tj,it's like ,all ppl are studying!!!and i srsly miss 4IT!!!!i rmb tat time we can joke all we wantt...but in TJ,some ppl cant take it..lol..OKAY LAH...i dun wan to complain alrr..luckily ,i have met a few nice ppl ...lol,the only few ppl tat i m be myself in front of them...LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE...elain tells mi this recently..ya,i 100% agree with itt..haha.if life is predictable..i wun even be in TJ...lol!!k,i shall go rest,i have a bad headache...=.=''''''...xD

okay i have come to this post by whoever and i srsly agree wif tat lol...:) (bear wif mi coz its in chinese

你等过一个人的短信吗？　　　　　　　　

发出去以后，等待回信，慢一点就重发，或者以为欠费了没电了，如果都正常，就再发一条“收到了吗”，或者打电话响两声作为提醒。等到回信了，就开始字斟句酌的回复，不可以太冷淡，不可以太积极，有点小可爱，有点小智慧，最后要用问句结尾，对方才好回复啊，之后发送，检查是否“已发送”，然后是新一轮的等待。　　　　　　　　时间长了，有了固定的时间，就开始在固定的时间段等待，哪天晚了就会再度猜测手机是不是欠费了？是不是没有信号了？直到对方姗姗来迟。　　　　　　　　有一天，对方忘记发信息了，明明很着急，还要硬撑着不主动发送，就那么死等着，一边等一边一个人生闷气，发脾气，关掉手机，然后才几分钟又赶快开机，继续等着，继续小声骂，继续生闷气，继续关手机，继续赶快再打开（就折腾那可怜的手机吧）直到对方短短几个字“刚才正忙呢，抱歉”，然后怒气全消，又眉开眼笑开始字斟句酌的发信息，当然，很可能，还要故作云淡风轻的写“呃，没事，我也刚忙呢”，没出息死了，是谁刚发誓再不回信息来着？　　　　　　　　再有一天，对方真是忘记了，就气愤之极的去睡觉（那愤怒的小火焰啊，呼呼的呼呼的），躺床上还要恶狠狠的翻看以前的短信息，想要删除所有的，结果看完一遍一条也舍不得删掉，有时候气急了，就干脆删了对方的电话号码——可是有什么用呢？那些数字你比谁都烂熟于心啊。　　　　再再有一天，你们客气了，冷淡了，对方远走他乡了，两人相隔一方了，短信息也逐渐稀稀拉拉起来，你也从最初的怅然若失到逐渐适应，时间真是一个很可怕的东西。　　　　再再再有一天，你开始一条条删掉以前的信息，精挑细选的删，百里挑一的删，可是删了又有什么用呢？那里的哪一个字，不是深深刻在你心里？　　　　　　　　再再再再有一天，你干脆把手机弄丢了，于是干干脆脆的丢了干净，然后你把头发也剪掉了，想一切总算要从头开始了（还好对方的新电话你还没有背下来）。　　　　　　　　然而在去买新手机的路上，你听到旁边的男孩子对小女生说“如果哪一天我不给你发信息了你睡的着吗”，小女孩哈哈说“怎么睡不着，我可以看以前的啊。”“那手机丢了呢？”“那也无所谓，我都记在心里啊。” 他们没看见，旁边的你，是怎样轻轻的重复了同样的话。　　　　　　　　看到这篇文章，是不是也会让你想起某某个人呢？当时的我明白她的心，最最珍惜的也是这份，这份“在乎”不知为什么，如今的爱情已经悄悄被我们排在事业，亲人，朋友的后面。是不是都在小心翼翼的保护着自己？怕受到伤害？曾经纯纯的爱情那里去了?请不要再说我在爱情面前像个小孩子，我就是小孩子怎么了？　　　　　　　　如果不是深爱，就不要说爱我，那些没用的话都是借口。。。爱时何时何地都有时间，都方便，都情绪高涨。淡了，倦了，然后便开始没时间，开始百无聊赖。。。最美的爱情，永远盛放在开始之前，回忆之后。如果“在乎”，就请放下那些所谓的没用的自尊。放不下，就不是真爱。都说80后，离暧昧很近，离爱情很远。。。真实的讽刺。不过，仍然相信，每个人，无论男人还是女人，都在期待自己和遇到那个人能拥有最纯真的感情，对么？　　　　　　　　是不是也会觉得似曾相识的感觉呢？不知道越来越方便省时的联系，是不是也让爱情变得难以把握其间的距离，总会到最后，回复短信，都只是一种敷衍。或者是一方焦心的等待，开心或失落，都被一条小小的短信掌控着，明明心存怀疑，却又要苦心的安慰自己，伴着无可奈何的疲惫感，分手只能是最好的选择吧~~~~伤心人，一大把呀~~~　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

失去的　　　　
得到的　　　　
最后，都是我们错过的。　　　　
回来的。　　　　
离开的。　　　　
最后，都是我们放弃的。

2007-10-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

HAHA,tml is the last day of debrief,finally,nightmare is gonna over.....but my results is not tat fantastic..should i work harder nxt time???haha,today our family go eat jumbo,i m damn satisfied,i eat 1 big black pepper crab,wohooooo,ytd i went out wif ze and i bought a earring and a skinny jeans...why guy's jeans so ex,its unfair lor..haha nvm...i m looking forward to 2cr and 3it chalet,wahahahah

ENG:62
chem:81
phy:82
chi:64.5
bio:57
emaths:92
amaths:93
combine human:55

my bio so sux sia...miss lam de ppr i realli cant handle,i will do well next time!!!

2007-08-16T20:13:00.000+08:00

yeah!we had won 3DL,they were just idiot lah,after losing to us,they still went to complain tat the referees were biased towards us,haha,i suggested tat they should just admit the facts,can???the score is 8-5,shawn is damn fuking rough...and 3LY lost to 3CR,i damn sad can???haiz,nvm,tml we vs 3CR,i will take revenge,haha STUPID MOLE,u wuill die......wahahahahahahahhaahaha,ze arh,cheer lah, show mi ur teeth!!

2007-08-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

michelle party

michelle kiss weisiang

js take away my first kiss

js's sexy dance

ytd i went to kbox wif nai ma and joy...haha,its damn funnnnnnn,we sang many many many songs...and naima wore contact lens,actually she wore contact beta than spec..spec so ugly ...but when we were going to pay $$$$$,we noticed tat we sange K happy which costed 20 in e end,although we fought bak, but we onli managed to get some discount nxt time...den we ate dinner there,and we took 2 photoes...haha,naima so tiao ti,every photo she said not nice den retake..now i upload some michelle birthday party photoes....